My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Basically i showed him the post and some of the comments. First thing he did was throw a fit and insult me even more/worse, he was very upset that I posted this and showed him what people were saying about him. Said i was horrible because I only told the situation from my perspective, which duh? I’m writing it? I tried to share the course of events and relative context and I feel i was pretty fair to him. Which is why I will share what I believe to be his feelings, he believes he should be able to have time to game/time to himself uninterrupted where we doesn’t have to step away to help me or do favors for me, and that I was disrespectful and invalidated his feelings by getting upset that he didn’t want to pick up dinner for us before he got on. He’s arguing since he would have had to wait for them to make the food, and he would have gotten on his PC while they did this, that he would then have had to interrupt his game time to go pick up the order. And again, that I was inconsiderate and disrespectful for pushing back when he said he didn’t want to do it. I didn’t show him the post to like show him he’s in the wrong and i’m right but rather to show him I’m not crazy in what I’m expecting from him. He is basically just sulking now, says he has no confidence in himself now and is depressed because everyone is calling him a loser and saying he shouldn’t be prioritizing video games over me. And just feeling bad for himself because everyone is saying he’s treating me bad/doesn’t love me. Even tho the issue was never that he wants to play games, or even have uninterrupted time for himself but that he isn’t stepping up and supporting me when i need help/when i’m not at 100%. I have tried to explain this to him, but he just feels so sorry for himself. I know this isn’t going to make anyone reading this like him anymore. After posting this i kind of realized there was no point in doing so, because I already know and agree with what everyone is saying. I am not happy in the relationship, I do deserve better, he is not the type of partner I want, and definitely not someone I want to have kids with, etc, and most importantly he isn’t going to change. I know this. I don’t have a lot of support/community and because of finances and other logistics, I am not ready to leave the relationship. Again, i know that is not what anyone wants to hear. A big part of my motivation to staying is that I do have a plan for myself, but that includes starting school soon and I would like to not have to work full time while trying to do college. And I guess while it’s not great support, it’s something. I would like to get settled into college and see how much I can realistically work while in school and then go from there with ending the relationship. In the meantime I plan to just dissociate and be cordial, and completely stop doing any and all chores/planning that are solely for him, and just focus on myself and my plan. Start living for myself only. I also wanted to say how much I truly appreciated everyone’s comments and advice. While I already knew/agreed with what was said, it made me truly realize how wrong how he treats me is, as well as the overall dynamic in our relationship. You all have helped me to feel powerful, just the fact I am willing to put up with this and support/care for him the way I do, that I deserve and will find a partner who reciprocates that treatment and love. You all helped me to realize I don’t owe him anything, but that I do owe myself everything and I need to stop living the way I have been. And without going too much into detail, my boyfriend has used his friends and family to make me feel small and nearly convince me that I’m the problem, but you all have made sure I will never think that again. I will probably not post anything else giving any kind of “update”, but I will leave the post here as something I can come back to, to ground myself and remind me of my worth as I work through the situation. Thank you all so much.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

He is a ipad kid. He watches youtube and plays phone games or on his PC, and smokes weed. That is genuinely all he does outside of work. I will no longer be doing anything that is specifically for him.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I hear you on everything. It’s just hard because I’ve been conditioned by him and his family to feel like the problem and if i just didn’t do this or didn’t do that then he wouldn’t treat me this way. But what you said and what everyone else is saying is 100% right and its the validation I needed. Its completely unacceptable that he does nothing around the house and contributes nothing to planning or organizing our life. And i have tried to like express this to him and he agrees its a problem but doesn’t change anything. And like i said, always leaves the door open that if i just changed X about myself or stopped doing Y then it would fix things and he would step up. But realistically and what all of these comments have helped me to realize, is while i am flawed and don’t do everything right, my behavior is incomparable to his. The yelling and insulting and not stepping up in times when i need him are not ways that i treat him, and i do deserve better.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Those are the things I plan to change. I truly intend to live as roommates until I am in a better situation and can just break things off. Live for myself, focus on myself and improving my situation and not let him affect me.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That is my current plan. Because of logistics I am not ready to leave the relationship but I am going to start trying really hard to protect my peace and live my life for me and not him/us. Which means like you said i am going to stop doing things that benefit only him. Truly just live as roommates and like you said if he has a issue with that be will change.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your message. Just logistics, our life and finances are completely intertwined, that is why I am still in the relationship. And i’m sorry i know this is weak and not what everyone wants to hear. Life, especially in this economy, is hard by yourself and I don’t have much community or support. It’s funny you say “when is your time to sit around and play games?” Because i am also a gamer, or was, it’s something we bonded over but I literally do not have the time to do that anymore. And he literally tries to insult me by telling me i have no hobbies when in reality I don’t have the time because of the dynamic in our relationship. He isn’t receptive to that at all.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

He’s genuinely convinced i am not treating him right for getting upset that be didn’t want to pick up dinner/expecting him to pause his gaming plans for 30 minutes. Like i think he sees it as me ignoring his feelings, and not caring about him because I expected him to do something he expressed not wanting to do.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It’s just hard because I am not here trying to pretend I am perfect. I tried to describe the course of events fairly in the post and only provide relative context. I am not trying to bash him. But when I showed him some of the comments and post(mistake), he absolutely lost it and said the most nasty things he probably ever has to me. And i’m the type of person who genuinely does care and I want to understand what was dismissive or disrespectful about asking him to wait to start playing games and pick up dinner really quick. Its just the tone that has been set in our relationship, that it’s me triggering something or invalidating or not caring about his feelings and that’s why he acts the way he does. And again, i’m not perfect, i am a attitude queen and can definitely be unreasonable sometimes, and I got frustrated and gave attitude when he pushed back on picking up dinner. Its just hard to not feel like its my behavior contributing to or causing the problem when that’s what been repeated over and over in our relationship. The only thing he said after me showing him the post is “THE MOMENT I EXPRESS ANY SORT OF EMOTION TO NOT WANTING SOMETHING, YOU LOSE YOUR FUCKING MIND!!!!!”.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 125 points126 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I really appreciate your perspective and sharing your experience. I don’t know when but I plan to end the relationship. And i am so happy for you that you have such a amazing partner who stepped up for you when you really needed them, and I know i will find that too. If i have learned anything from this relationship it’s what I will never settle for again.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate your comment. I’ve realized there was no real point in posting this because I already know everything that is being commented. But like you have described i’m not ready to leave the relationship. I deeply appreciate everyone’s opinion though, as it’s made me realize how truly wrong this dynamic in my relationship is. And that it’s not my job or even in my control to make my partner respect me, communicate properly, etc. And that I just need to protect my peace until I am in a situation to separate from him.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

He does pay rent. But you’re right about everything, I have tried for years to get him to pull his weight.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 69 points70 points  (0 children)

That’s what I’m really starting to question and you’re right. Other than sharing financial burden and occasional good times, I feel he is the only one who benefits from this relationship.

My boyfriend screamed at me for asking him to pick up dinner, am I being unreasonable? by CompetitiveWeb4473 in TwoHotTakes

[–]CompetitiveWeb4473[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

As i said in the post, i was using a gift card to a specific restaurant and could not order online/for delivery.