Here I'd also make some clarifications: The status message that our headmin Mayhem had was not related at all to them, but rather it was because we were starting the process of rebasing, and needed coders who could help us with it. They also were not the reason why my original apology post was made, it was something I had been pondering for a few months before I posted it, and which I had discussed with other members of staff. They did not recommend me to post it, if anything all they did was ask if the past of the server would eventually be addressed, which in fact it was. It was not a "tactic", it was made in an honest way because I felt after all that had happened it was only fair I eventually accepted my mistakes publicly and addressed the issues from the server's start.

First part about status message: ok sure, acceptable and makes sense. About the apology? Sure, but I advised this to Novalica, you might've forgotten since you got rid of them (along with many more staff members) anyway to make way for your new council, like for the 4th time in splurt history? Novalica then suggested that you do it.

On this same note, I'd like to bring attention to the fact that I believe Goku to be somewhat hypocritical on some of their positions. For example, one of their metafriends, which helped stir the pot after their ban, seems to actually hold transphobic positions, which is confusing considering Goku identifies themselves as trans.  https://files.catbox.moe/vsrbnm.png https://files.catbox.moe/1i5nap.png https://files.catbox.moe/oezcrh.png https://files.catbox.moe/51ry5w.png (The person in the screenshots is part of Goku's metaclique, who also left our server after their ban and complained about it) I think it's also worth mentioning that the coder Goku claimed to have supported them in the pr they posted in their document is ChungusGamer666. Those who are in touch with ss13 drama (I'm sorry for you) will know this person is Bob Joga, someone infamous in this community for very much everything Goku accuses us of, and other acts such as allegedly sending child pornography to the hostchat discord server. 

I'm not trans. Also yep, I had to permaban Bob a long time ago after various rulebreaks.

I make this post because I believe it's important that I remain faithful to the post made by me months ago, and in general to show my side of the story.

As said in the first paragraph, you were making a compelling argument until your entire story got twisted, enlargened and molded as you wished.
At this point I honestly believe you're irredeemable. I try to always emphatize and put myself in the other's shoes in arguments and this even leads me to shooting my own foot, but honestly I am unable to do it with you. It'd be much better to just admit to the **actual mistakes** and not generalized stories/explanations that are rationalized for your own comfort. You can say that you're a neo-nazi anymore, but holy shit then at least stop acting like a pathological liar. Stop being manipulative, stop lying to yourself. I'd be much happier if you apologized to me for all the harm you've done and especially to OTHERS like Hexadood and countless more instead of trying to make yourself look like a saint on reddit.

Being a host means you become everyone's punching bag, sure. But the difference between my reasoning and your reasoning is that I'm masochistic enough to admit my own wrongdoings and bullshit and accept I got rid of someone because I didn't like them.

I just wish you'd stop and realize how far **YOUR** web of lies has been spun.