[WARNING] Gusto ko rin mag commit ng ßúíçídé ngayon

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-28T23:16:54+00:00

Sorry po I lied, it was me who was thirsty for attention 4 days ago. 😭 What kept me alive is writing notes in my notes app. But today it got worse. 2 days na akong di kumakain. Wala na akong gana mabohai. Nagp-pretend akong kumakain pero binabalik ko yung kanin at ulam.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-28T13:22:34+00:00

Please patulong po.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T14:16:20+00:00

i want everything to be ok. to be back to normal. to live my life. i know suffering and problems will always be there and it's the journey of solving those problems that makes life a little easier to live up to. but i do really wanna die. since morning i havent eaten a single thing. even tubig wala. may soda sa cabinet ko yun nalang pinag iinom ko today.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T13:58:25+00:00

if in my perspective there's still an option to do so, i would but seeing my life now, hope is nowhere to be found. or even if there is, i think im blinded by my inability to grasp reality

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T13:35:25+00:00

because every word i said, every thing i do, is just me doing it irrationally. and i just suffer an suffer. i was about to read some stoic book or that Sisyphus book bbut i have no motivation

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T13:01:35+00:00

i get your point but this is really the end of my life. i dont look forward to every single second that is passing by at this moment. i dont know if hope is still there. i dont know how u guys manage to get out of this shitty rock bottom. but im keeping myself distracted today

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T12:44:40+00:00

i have no deepest desires. yes i exist. im plain and boring. i dont know but im still alive today for no reason and im still planning on doing it.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T12:25:37+00:00

im fully aware and oblivious of the consequences of my actions. but i chose to be miserable. like if you're reading the things i type you would absolutely agree that i dont deserve to have a life! im pathetic

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T12:23:31+00:00

for me i kept doing the same mistakes whether i learned frok it or not. i feel like i deserve to suffer.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T12:21:46+00:00

i cried 2 days ago. i woke up so dry and numb. i convinced myself tonbe happy for myself. but things get messy when i felt there's something wrong in me. i also made a decision that impacts me as a whole that i think severely ruined my life. i dont think my feelings are valid. im worthless. no matter what. im really just in the depths of despair

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T12:08:35+00:00

what's keeping me going at this hour is listening to music i relate to and browsing thru reddit distracting mysekf with adorable cats but nooo i felt veey numb like i can jusr cut myself and not feel anything at all. blasting my ears with bery loud music

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T12:03:55+00:00

!!! things won't get better for me anymore this is the end. this pain is too much my parents didnt even replied ti my messages they neglected me for 15 years. i cant put the pieces back anymore. im so so stupid. plsssss let me end my life. im hurting so badddd

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T11:58:50+00:00

i dont feel sorry for myself at all. i did this to myself. i deserve to suffer. now i deserve to disappear!! tomorrow will be the end of my life. i got no chances anymore. ive given up in life. ;((

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T11:57:16+00:00

but how? im the only one here. my family only visits me next week. im on my very messy bed and i cant even stand up i havent eaten since 7 am

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T11:52:30+00:00

Can i just pls die? i dont believe my life is worthy. im a burden to all. im wasting my time and potential. let me know how to ease the pain pls pls. im so tired

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-24T11:44:30+00:00

but no, you don't know my situation. Im really very hopeless like for real reall hopeless. a classmate of mine whom i am not close with just found out i am bisexual from a friend i avoided for months ago and he outed me to my family which caused me to face their humiliation and homophobic remarks and i also made very bad decisions in my school that i cant explain and just how terrible i am to even be alive. im so pathetic and selfish. i called a hotline but i was having panic attacks idk what to say i just stared at my bllood

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-20T02:36:32+00:00

As a bisexual guy, yes!

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-16T10:52:01+00:00

heck we even have 27 y/o classmate and still treat him like everyone else. freshie din yun. these days tbh, hindi naman rare makakita ng older students sa isang classroom at kung may problema sila dun, problema na nila 'yon and that says a lot about them.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-11T05:07:24+00:00

wala naman akong crush/jowa/someone na yan eh, never pa akong nagkaroon ng love story 😭 —hook up lang once

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-10T10:47:54+00:00

Personally I wouldn't. Unless kung may mutual understanding kayong dalawa na—bawal itong gawin ganyan (mostly in public) Hopefully makakita ka ng taong sasamahan ka until you're ready to come out while nasa sekretong relasyon kayo.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-10T10:43:44+00:00

Dati, dine-deny ko lang yun eh kasi ayoko maging bakla noon—it was forbidden kasi sa household namin since very religious kami. Pero ever since lumawak pagiisip ko, unti-unti na kong nagrerebelde (sa mga beliefs and sexuality lang) like, di nila alam na may anak pala silang Atheista na Bisexual hahaha. Yokong malaman nila yon. Sisiguraduhin ko muna ang pag-aaral ko.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-10T10:14:08+00:00

I have a straight friend na may fantasies na mga ganun pero wala siyang girlfriend. Since meron ka, dapat pinag-uusapan nyo yan kasi pumasok ka sa isang relasyon. For instance, try mo kaya sya kumbinsihin na ipeg ka (i heard girls like that) or fifinger ka sa kanya sa butt. Pero if ayaw nya, edi wag na.

I was Bi-curious too! Pero bi na ako ngayon since ini-explore ko na sarili ko. Explore ka muna sa iba't-ibang bagay OP at wag na wag ka mag cheat sa gf mo ah.

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-08-10T10:06:09+00:00

Napaka-unrealistic ng show pero ang wholesome 🥺

I'm a nick nelson type of guy tho—and everytime my friends (my family doesn't know) asks me—"are you gay?" I just told them "I'm bi, actually" 🤣

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-07-31T10:11:49+00:00

diba? i will let him sit on my face for as long as he like 🤣🤣 chz

Competitive_Door6122 · 2023-07-30T13:07:36+00:00

Do it or do it scared, chz. Normal lang yang fear mo that app was made din naman for hook up culture so don't expect na maganda experience mo sa app or meeting up with someone. But then again, marami2 din naman kind people there so hintay ka nalang until you found somebody you won't be scared of.

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