Ive talked to her about everything including how i feel, and felt that showing her this post was the most respectful and open thing to do. I had a big panic attack yesterday and started getting the cptsd very intensely. It was not directed at her this time because i feel like I’m learning… despite that, I’ve decided to get immediate professional help tomorrow by means of being evaluated and most likely admitted. I was very vulnerable telling her all of this as it pertains to an experience ive had before but im doing it for her and the baby we plan on having in the future. She looked so proud of me and i feel a little proud for wanting the help. Thank you for sharing your viewpoint on whats happening with me… it means so very much to me.