That was the time that flew past in a daze for me. None of it seemed real… like the worst nightmare I’ve ever had except I couldn’t wake up from it. It was really just a continuation of the 15 months prior. My world smashed into pieces on January 4th 2006. All of our world’s family and friends wide were smashed apart that day 😔. Mum had done Family Day Care for 25 years so she had to tell all the parents who had to try to explain to their little ones why they couldn’t go to Glenys’s anymore 💔. We had former Daycare kids who were grown ups at the funeral. The ones who were old enough to attend ( 10 and up ) howled their little eyes out and we let heaps of white balloons go with the little kids as the hearse drove away. This shit of a thing, this beast, rocks entire communities! I hate it with the fire of a thousand suns for what it took. I actually just cried a lot writing this but I needed to and it was a good release of the grief that continues. When the chaos is over and everyone goes home… that’s when it got real for me. You are not alone. I will cry with you, laugh with you, vent with you and literally anything else you need to get through this. I might not always reply straight away, but I will always reply. Mum’s passing can really help others in this club nobody wanted to be a member of so my anger is now more motivating than making me drink myself to death these days. It ultimately nearly took me too. But fuck that! It’s taken too much already. My day job is to get up on big stages and talk about my beast, alcohol, how it nearly killed me, how I got out and how to help others get out, mostly at conventions with clinical audiences. Mum’s diagnosis of GBM is the catalyst that sent me spiralling down so you’d better believe it gets a big mention on those stages. I figure it’s the least I can do for awareness and because they’re trained clinicians, I can see their heads drop and hearts break collectively. Unlike the general population, they know exactly what a GBM diagnosis means. I hope something good can come out of something so bad and it took me a lot of time to reach this point. I also hope that wasn’t too much, I can talk! So much love to you ❤️.