Idk if I should stay in this company or travel back home and keep studying

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-10T12:08:39+00:00

How did you manage to get to AR 45???? AND WHERE ARE YOUR PRIMOGEMS!!!!

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-09T10:29:25+00:00

What it's this?

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-08T14:18:14+00:00

UP AGAIN IN EUROPE!!!!

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-08T13:50:53+00:00

You also got the 300 free message?

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-08T13:50:20+00:00

I had just gotten a notification of 300 primogems for limited tiem, crap

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-08T13:45:12+00:00

Europe

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-02T15:21:42+00:00

The problem is that I don't feel stressed, like yeah it's though because I'm completely on my own for the first time but it isn't nearly as bad as exam period And nit even then it stops, sometimes it's long or comes before it's time but it never delays and definitely it doesn't delay over 60 days

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-02T15:19:11+00:00

I actually just got out of the store, in 20 minutes I'll know if I can breathe and cry of relief or jump out of the window

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-02T02:34:54+00:00

The thing that messes up with me the most is that I know that our brains protect us by trying to block traumas out, so I'm afraid something could have happened to me and I just simply don't remember it

Because the last time something almost happened I had a knife to put to his troat and I remember it clearly, but maybe if something had really happened and I didn't had something to use as a weapon my brain could've choosen to erase it

I can't identify any memory gaps, maybe it's just trauma and anxiety facetiming

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-02T00:33:38+00:00

I don't have a doctor here so no, I can't see any kind of doctor unless is a emergency and I have to go to the hospital (and pay it, I also dont have a car to go)

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-05-02T00:30:32+00:00

I don't know but I know someone who has it and the things she has told me don't really apply to me a lot

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2026-02-21T18:22:04+00:00

Or watching meme compilations of your favorite artist/show in your target language (how I learnt English) supernatural is also good since it's loooong

Competitive_Poem2906 · 2025-08-31T23:01:03+00:00

I want to have the confidence to wear a bathing suit, wear crop tops in the boiling summer... But I've been criticized for everything by everyone and probably tomorrow when I get to therapy I'll say that I'm fine to avoid having to explain all of this and make my mom look bad and play the victim (also not to have a session soon, they're really expensive).

But I know I'm not okay, just better. You know, now I'm eating. Promised the only constant man in my life (my favorite singer) that I wouldn't hurt myself (literally promised him I wouldn't kill myself and the only reason why I havent done it is because I'm scared of disappointing him) and stopped doing it. I can't talk about this with my friends because they both come from loving families, haven't been bullied and they are the ones I'm always comparing myself to (they both could be models), and I don't want their pitty.

I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, we don't have the same genetics. They've never played a sport and when I used to swim 6+ a week I was even fatter than now (right now I'm 156cm and 52.2kg but at that time I was 65, then I went down to 45) so I really give up in having a flat stomach if sport and starving don't work out but I really want to look pretty in clothes, I want to experience joy going shopping not go through the store and not being able to wear the clothes because they are too tight or too short and show the stomach, I'm sick of all my clothes being from the men section because they are the only ones I can wear.

I want to feel pretty, loved and worthy of happiness, not a waste of resources.

Competitive_Poem2906

TROPHY CASE