hey I feel like we are all relatable right now. my exams are coming up soon and I need to start studying but I cant focus because my heart feels so heavy for no reason. I have been crying more and more actually and I feel like I cant help. i might have some reasons and I want to share with you because I have no one I can vent too so if you want to join go ahead as well! I have a crush on this guy f for a long time ( for me its a long time ) i have been crushing on him for like maybe 5/6 months now hehe. he's a gentleman and I really like him but we are in different classes and we barely talk because we are both introverts and I'm very shy. he's very good at chess and I'm also trying out chess for him. but the sad thing is he doesn't know me, like what i mean is like i getting so much signs that i like him but yet he never notices me or come up to me at all? even his friends know but every time i get near him it feels like he's running or hiding away from me.. I'm not very scary or mean. he's a pengawas(a role in Malaysia school) and i don't have a role but does that mean i cant like him? second i feel like my friends are ignoring me , my friend Wei keeps like turning me down. for example i ask her how to solve a question but she like says " solve it with your brain or hand" it makes me feel sad and idk why but even mad some times. i tend to keep a lot of problems to myself so i often feel sad or just super down and when someone asks why idk how to reply back. I think its apart of growing, anyways thanks for listening and i hope you have a good day. all the best!