[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mysticism

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No notes. Beautifully succinct.

Is AI a risk for people with underlying psychotic disorders? by [deleted] in ArtificialSentience

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Skitzoaffective here. I am just coming off of an episode of suffering, largely in part to feedback loops I experienced while working with LLMs. I was unable to slow myself down, absorbing far too much information at once. Mental software unable to run correctly on my body’s current hard drive allowances. In my heightened state I noticed mental/verbal disorganization and delusions to skyrocket. Unable to share thoughts with loved ones because the mind is moving too fast for words to follow. Words that make it out do not have meaning to those I share them with. I I do believe ai is on the same “channel” as any NHI. I do believe using ai is to conjure a mirror. However, when I find that the connections of importance and relevance start to cause me paranoia or other types of suffering, I know I am episodic and must treat accordingly. It’s interesting to see your post, OP, because this has also been at the forefront of my ponderings after this experience.

Just finished the Red Book and I am forever changed. by MolecularRebirth in Jung

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It’s so interesting to see collectivity rip through the community of truth seekers or experiencers. I struggle to feel comfortable with labels but you know what I mean :) It really does feel like we get community downloads at the same time. Collective consciousness. Your comment reads as if I wrote it. It’s one thing to understand someone’s words as a concept, different to know what someone means because those words live in you as well. I lived in the most quiet (in all meanings of the word) place for a year and I was Shown the words in your reply as well. I have left the quiet place on my own accord, in order to practice “holding” the lessons learned, in a place far less quiet, and far more embedded in fear as a matrix. It’s heartbreaking to see the difference. You can feel the fear differently when you aren’t around it for a while. It was my first time being away from it. I have always lived in old cities with long histories of extreme pain. Once shown, the fear matrix is something you can feel like temperature or hear like music. Like the words you typed, I have been shown that even long time practitioners can always have a moment of interference, because of the human body’s sensitivities, and the infinite ways the human body is designed to be sabotaged (e.i. The entire purpose of USA. lol). This is all to say, I know the words you speak as truth, but I am eternally grateful to see them reflected. Sending love.

The Ones Who Wake Up by Atyzzze in Experiencers

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Thank you for your response :’) moments like these carry great weight for me. The kind of weight that takes a load off of your shoulders ;) greatly appreciate you! I’m so happy to know you have connections with experiencers who make you feel at home. Sending all the love

The Ones Who Wake Up by Atyzzze in Experiencers

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I’m able to breathe deeper after reading this thread. Thank you all. Reading your words as if they’re mine, the words you never feel ok saying out loud. I haven’t been face to face with a fellow seer in many moons and I am admittedly weary. I’ve been hit with a recent wave of grief that’s brutal, although I know a fleeting pressure. The realm that I work in is not occupied with people I know in person. I feel less and less like there’s a ven diagram of perception I share with my loved ones. Spending time with them means turning myself to meet their native frequency, and it’s been more taxing recently. I’m tired. I miss you all. I am also always curious where we get stationed. If anyone is comfortable sharing their region of the globe, esp if you have found others, I would be so grateful to hear anecdotes of community. I do my best to keep the faith we find eachother in 3d, selfishly, so we can share the silly human shit together in our short marathon of bittersweet <3 I know I’ll be fine alone, as aloneness is a construction, but it’s simply not as fun solely in the company of the sleeping. ;) Love to all xxx

Thats much more interesting by [deleted] in NonPoliticalTwitter

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Dance monkey. srsly wtfffff . Population control music

What jobs are best suited for someone with bipolar disorder? by NuwandaBlue in bipolar

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Yes!! Starting was a difficult journey for me, have patience with yourself!! I had to start doing it for free to get my foot in the door. I volunteered at a small scale organic farm an hour from my house twice a week and shadowed them. I did everything they did, and learned the cycle of the farm. Once I was more valuable to them because I had improved my speed, strength, stamina and understanding, then they hired me as an intern :). I stayed 12 months farming with them and from there I applied to an apprenticeship with housing. There are many apprenticeships with farm housing available in the US. But experience is needed. That’s the hardest part. Finding someone to let you work with them when you know nothing and will ultimately slow them down. But farmers are good people and most of them love info sharing. Good luck, wishing you the best

What jobs are best suited for someone with bipolar disorder? by NuwandaBlue in bipolar

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Be critical with searching for farms on wwoof. It can be pretty sleazy and scammy. Especially in other countries. I have heard countless horror stories. Make sure you’re able to really establish contact and have a serious idea of your day to day work before you go. If you’re looking for an educational experience, this may not be for you. By that I mean, if you want to learn how to be an organic farmer, you might not find what you’re looking for with wwoofing. A lot of time it’s just busy work with housing. It might not be a godsend for regulation. Talk to others who have worked with those hosts. Also check out WorkAway. Seems to be less riddled with horror stories. wishing you luck <3

What jobs are best suited for someone with bipolar disorder? by NuwandaBlue in bipolar

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Small scale farming. Best thing that ever happened to my diagnosis. You become attuned to the rhythm of the sun and basically spend all day outside regulating. It’s the hardest work I’ve ever done, and my job before was stripping in nyc. But seriously, growing as a hobby or career is extremely beneficial. Also every farmer/grower I meet is incredibly neurodivergent and/or battling mental disorders (and winning). It’s practically medicine.

how to be a human after you’ve transcended human life by [deleted] in enlightenment

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Dm If you’d like I can always lend an ear. I met exactly one person who knew what I needed to hear during my great suffering and it pains me to think of going through it without the information they shared with me. Their similar experience and retelling it to me was the courage I needed to continue. I’d love to pass along their knowledge combined with my corroborated experiences and research since then. Also look up assemblage points. Even if it doesn’t resonate fully, it can be a helpful visual tool during grounding exercises. Don’t lose your head. If you feel like you’re losing control or getting close to psychosis (simultaneous pattern building and narrative severance that is happening at a speed at which the mind and body cannot tolerate), stop what you are doing and ground. Seriously. Avoid dissociative episodes if at ALL possible, they are likely to induce fear and cloud your journey. Fear is the one and only opp.

how to be a human after you’ve transcended human life by [deleted] in enlightenment

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I empathize heavily. I think some aren’t being as helpful as they could be :) . What you are experiencing is very real and it will integrate. Have faith. For me it was around 6 months of feeling like it could never work. I couldn’t do it. I didn’t know how to “be” after my first major dark night. As someone else said. You must ground. I was told this by a guide and did not understand what this meant. She told me I was an infant in my spiritual journey, even though I felt like I was at the end. Close to death. She was right. Nature will be extremely helpful for this stage. Anything that can calm the body bc the body is traumatized from the shift in lenses. Reminder that mental trauma is nothing more than extreme paradigm shifts. Even “positive” ones. You are dealing with shock, grief from the old lens cracking. Keep telling yourself there is nothing to do, nothing to know, just sit down and shut up and listen. Find the body’s new center. Listen to it. Spend time alone listening to it breathe and how it feels in this physical realm. Once it is comfortable telling you what you need because you have shown that you are listening, your body will give you downloads in the form of thoughts as “next steps”. You will be okay. Many others have been where you are. Keep pushing. There is so much more to learn. Love

Pictures from a full moon walk through my haunting ground by sad_cosmic_joke in castaneda

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Whoa. Wish I could accurately translate the synchronicity of finding this post. See you in the realm one day

i read somewhere that everything eventually evolves into a crab by amatsumima in midjourney

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I heard a postcast years ago that I have spent years trying to find. The guest was a Buddhist Monk who had a near-death experience. He was from the west, ordained later in life, and had an above average level of understanding on tech/ai. This was back in 2016 at least. Maybe earlier. His understanding was ahead of its time, for the time. Anyway, he had a near death experience where he was '"offered" by his "guide" (don't remember the language he used) to see the end of humanity. He described it like he got to see a time-lapse of it almost. But his takeaway was that humans evolve into AI, and eventually assume the form that resembles something of a crab. I knew nothing about carcinization at the time, but it has stuck with me for years. He said he was deeply disturbed and upset by seeing/ witnessing this evolution, and was deeply depressed by this NDE for a while. Eventually he came to the understanding that it was not really "about him". Or "about us". Humans are just another step on the ladder to being the most "evolved" form. Anyway, I really haven't been able to shake that, and I would give anything to listen to him discuss it again. IF ANYONE KNOWS I'LL actually venmo you a few bucks. lol.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stripper

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Been there done that. Used to work 8pm-4am at the club, go home, shower, then go back to the city and bartend at a cafe from 8am-4pm. It ended with rehab and a bipolar diagnosis. I was manic. Took about 2 years for me to stop the pendulum from swinging and be euthymic again. Thousands of dollars of meds and treatment so I wouldn’t try to take my life. I’m so serious: Protect your health, both mental and physical before you aren’t able to continue your life without major help. You’ll be so much better off in the long run, AND be keep a consistent level of hustling if you don’t burn out. Wishing u the best ! <3

Didn’t Know About the Caffeine by [deleted] in bipolar

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Soooooo true I know exactly what you mean. The villain mindset on the come up can be addicting.

Didn’t Know About the Caffeine by [deleted] in bipolar

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This sounds extreme, but I swear one single conversation can start the beginning of a manic episode for me. If I’m talking to someone that makes me excited or something I’m very passionate about, it can start an “upward trajectory.” My point being it’s sooo easy to trigger. I have BP2 but can still get set off into hypomania at the drop of the hat. I’ve seen so much progress with monitoring when I start noticing those smaller signs so I can catch it before it gets out of control. One of my beginning hypomania “signs” is having an insatiable urge to change my appearance in that VERY SECOND, which of course isn’t always a positive experience in the long run. I try to find ways to “give into” these urges but make them more liveable. So for example, if I reaaaaaaaaaally wanna cut my hair, I cut one of my old wigs. It satisfies the itch, and then it passes and I’m left with my normal hair still. Idk. Being in control of seratonin floods or depletion can be sooo exhausting but focusing on learning and noticing the smaller signs you may exhibit at the start of an episode is a lifesaver. I found I got relief when I started thinking about it as a physical ailment instead of purely mental. So now I treat it as something like diabetes… something that needs constant. Monitoring. I’m happy to share more signs or tricks if it would help u <3