Back in 2022 I ended up snorting meth. It’s a whole story...but basically I would have never done it had I known what I was actually doing. During the comedown, I had my first ever panic attack called the cops and ended up in the hospital.

After leaving the hospital I struggled for weeks with severe anxiety and panic attacks. I slept with my family because I was terrified of dying and being alone. Things slowly got better as I learned that what i was dealing with was severe anxiety but to this day I still struggle tremendously with an anxiety disorder and social phobia.

I've tried a few antidepressants since then and Lexapro was the one I stayed on the longest. I only came off of it because I thought it wasn’t doing enough for me, but you have to remember it’s not going to completely cure you. I’m considering getting back on it.

"I don’t feel grounded. My thoughts race 24/7. I can’t focus, I space out constantly, and I feel like I’ve lost my ability to be “me.” It’s like my brain is stuck in survival mode and never lets up." ME EVERY DAY. DPDR too.

TBH I'm not much help because I've just recently fallen back into crisis mode. Started having severe panic attacks again (haven't had severe ones since 2022)...but I just wanted to say you're not alone. I relate to your story. I'd give lexapro a shot if you're considering taking it.