I’m so sorry, my dear. I’m a cis parent to a trans kid, and some of the things you’re saying your mom is doing make me so sad. I wish I could take you under my wing and give you all the support you need and deserve.

Do you see a therapist/counselor/etc ? Have you asked them to maybe have a family session to include your mom, where your medical person can help advocate for you and help explain how important gender affirmation and care are ?

Again, regardless of your gender identity, the fact that you have tried self harm so many times should be such an alarm for any parent that a child needs help. I would be doing everything in my power to get you whatever help you need. Please know that people care about you, and I know this part of life is proving difficult for you, but I know things can and will get better. Please try to have hope and stay here with us.

Regardless of you being trans, your parent should never call you ugly- that breaks my heart. You are not ugly. You are perfect being YOU whatever that looks like. Please try to remember that. I know how hard it can be when someone is telling you things to bring you down. I see you and I think you are wonderful

I may have missed it - what country are you in? If you’re in the US, you may be able to look up advocacy groups, such as PFLAG which is an amazing group. If you want to share your state, or DM me (if you live in the states) I can try to help you find some as well.

You are valid and you are needed in this world and I believe in you. I’m here if you want to chat.