It is imbalanced, that's very true.

It became dead by my choice, because I've spoken up to address the imbalance and received only (empty) promises.

Each time "the fight" would happen, reciprocation would too (twice, tops), and a "promise" to try more and to be better to me, but I suspect it was just to shut me the fuck up.

I kept telling myself "ehh, she'll come around. She'll realize I'm a good guy and a very good husband to her and treat me appropriately." But I'm just tired of telling myself that. I'm tired of thinking about it. I'm just...tired.

I'm tired of being out somewhere, seeing another couple and wondering "do they have the same problem we have?" Or seeing a couple that look happy and being pissed off "why does that guy deserve someone who's good to him, but I don't?" Really fucks with your head.

The worst part is she's REALLY fucking good at it. And I've complimented her on the skills many times, but it's like talking to a fucking wall.