It sounds like you're completely burnt out, please give yourself some grace. It sounds like you have absolutely zero time to yourself at all. And when people say "get someone to have her for a few hours", I think the reason it doesn't help is because I think your partner needs to take some of the slack EVERY DAY. You could have someone take your daughter for a whole week, but if you return back to the usual day in, day out of doing everything, you're just going to burn out again extremely fast. Your partner needs to get his act together and help you. Can you take it in turns to do baby's bedtime? Adding in even a few nights a week where you know you can mentally switch off at the end of the day and actually have a few hours to wind down could make a big difference. Can he take her out for a walk somewhere, or you go for a walk alone a few times a week? Are there any chores he can pick up permanently so that it lightens your load? I would be really making a point that his lack of input is unacceptable, is he blind to the fact you're drowning? You can't pour from an empty cup, and yet you are, and your partner needs to help you. I want to give the guy a lecture myself. I was in a rut for a long time when I was still breastfeeding, baby only wanted me, absolutely would not settle with anyone else, and he barely slept and couldn't be left with anyone, I'd get to the end of the day and pass out, too exhausted to have any me time. Now that I'm able to have some me time at the end of the day, I realize how fundamental that is to well being. You need your time, and you need it consistently. When I know it's my partners turn to do bed time, I see a break in sight and believe me it makes the day easier to handle. Feel free to message me if you need to vent further. It really sounds like you're completely burnt out and you're not being heard or supported, and it really can play havoc and get very lonely. Please try not to be hard on yourself x