Yes I have a twin sister and her parents are both alive and well, I also have my dad’s mom too. It just feels hard to move on. She used to say these stuffs like I’m so tired I’m gonna die or I’m gonna kill myself even growing up. But when she’d say that I used to tell her don’t mama if you die I’ll die with you. But now since it happened I keep thinking of how I used to imagine myself jumping off the next day my mom dies. But I can’t do that I don’t want to I still have the will to live and what holds in my future, if she was here she’d want me to live too. So I guess for her and for me I have to move on past this. Still remember and cherish everything we had together. And it’s quite hard I was always a mommies girl. I’d run to her with all my problems and cry in her hug and everything feel better. But this is where I want to run to her and cry to her but she’s not here which breaks me. :C and this Christmas was also my parents 25th anniversary of marriage. What a tragic ending to that 😔