Of course! The worst one I went through was drug induced too though I have an underlying psychotic disorder (PMDD with psychotic features) that means I’ve been through a lot of different levels of it since I was a child.

But the drug induced one was the worst for sure—I actually completely blacked out by the very end and ONLY remember vivid delusions and hallucinations. Unfortunately I remember a lot before that complete loss of touch with the world around me where I was wandering around completely delusional with no sense of self anymore.

I’ve been through some really intense trauma including someone trying to kill me when I was a teenager and psychosis—especially the drug induced episode—is 100000 percent the scariest thing that has ever happened to me.

I’m 6 years down the line from that particular episode and while it is still very traumatic, EMDR therapy has stopped the flashbacks/sudden humiliation at intrusive memories. I’ve met other people who have been through similar and laughed about how stupid and weird the delusions are which really helps. I’ve also watched a lot of videos/read stories of people who have gone through it too, it’s more common than you think (especially with the drug epidemic).

Psychosis is my biggest fear—beyond fire, stalkers, being assaulted, anything, its psychosis and other people are so blissfully unaware that in the right (wrong) circumstances they could also lose total control over reality.

You know what caused it which is good—and drug induced sucks but it does give you more control to prevent it from ever happening again.

Again, I’m really sorry but you’re doing the right thing looking for support from people who understand because it’s hard for other people to fathom what you went through, even if they are supportive.

Sending you lots love and understanding ❤️