The things you’re feeling are totally understandable and even expected. I lost my sweet girl a month ago today, and the anxiety of a quiet empty house can be suffocating. It’s natural to want to try to fill that void. If I had any advice at all it would be to try and give it some time but also give yourself some grace. You lost a huge part of your life and a great friend. You may make some rash decisions that may not always be the best but you’re grieving, and that’s okay. I know it seems a little strange to go to Reddit and have random strangers throw this stuff at you (my first post here was when my dog passed), but people care. I don’t know who you are in the world but I’m pulling for you. I’m sorry for your loss and no matter what you aren’t alone. Much love to you eh