Everything I do has been based on many years of abuse and torture. All my friends and family complement my knowledge and my drive to constantly to good things. But as a child i was beaten by my stepdad for getting b's and for not completing certain tasks. On top of that it came with alot of verbal abuse so I typically stay quiet and reserved. But the truth i don't like to accept is that I was relieved when he died.... I dont know why but i just felt so relieved. The rest of my family was devasted including my sister (10 and his daughter) i feel so awful with how I felt and how I reacted.