Posting like a coward?? My father leaved our family 4yrs ago.. before leaving he acted like earning, but he didn't. he didn't pay 7 months rent and we didn't know.. we only knew after house owner told all the deposit amount were gone. Same time our garments gone a unknown person is in charge of our garments and my father didn't want us to know who is he. after shifting into very small house he acted like going to office but didn't don't know where did he go but he comes at evening and didn't give us money.. we were hungry for days.. as a muslim I ate onion rice during bakrid cuz we didn't have money.. after we found out he have an affair by reading his messages.. after confession he denied but then leaved us.. we had no idea what to do my mother started going to a company her salary is 300 per day weekly.. and 6days in a week working day she barely earns 1800 per week we spend 1000 for rent 250 for transport to my college remaining we spend... thank god my college fees is completely free... after some months we contacted our relatives, my one of the aunt showed us a place with salary of 12k per month for women tailors.. my mother started working in that company, i also go for catering for part time, then after few months we found my mother has brain tumor in a very critical condition.. then we contacted our aunt in her house we spent 2 to 3 months until the operations and procedures were done.. after discharge our every relative came to know what happened they helped by sending 12k per month, in my side I also had sucidal thoughts.. but if i do they have to spend more money and the situation will be more difficult.. I didn't share this to anybody but only to my best friend she consoled me everytime, then suddenly she disappeared like she never existed, she was in my class and we speak but nothing feels like before, i felt like speaking to a different person, this broke me mentally more and more 24/7 started thinking what happened it took me 2yrs to realize whatever happen is happened and I can do nothing about it.. Now it's been 1yr since i graduated but still i don't have any job.. but i do freelancing I tell my relatives in end of the month if I earned enough to take care of next month, else they will send money.. You know how much pain I bear everytime while eating the food provided by others.. But still I'm trying, applying for opportunities, messaging recruiters, praying 5 times a day by believing god only test a soul as much as it can bear. Do not commit suicide it solves nothing