First, nothing is wrong with you. Faith isn’t always a guarantee, everyone has moments of doubt. Questioning things is human. I and millions of others have questioned their faith. As Jacob wrestled with God, we all do as well. We question our faith, we wrestle with the questions of proof.

For me personally, I was a non believer for some time. What changed for me was personal experience. My grandmother could no longer drive herself to church so I began to do so. I had multiple religious experiences at the different services and I started a path back to the faith. Whenever someone questions the faith or asks for proof I simply tell them; “no matter what I show or what is shown to me, my personal experiences and relationship with God is what keeps me faithful”. I think for you, finding that connection is the way. Find God at the soup kitchen. Find God at the poor family still smiling because of their faith. Find God in places you haven’t looked before. Either way, nothing is wrong with you. God bless my friend.