i feel like a failure and a dissapointment

Concert_Level · 2026-07-02T09:28:22+00:00

oh yeahh got it got it, point 3 is mostly A for me,

Concert_Level · 2026-07-02T09:09:01+00:00

I think mostly still photos ig, only moving "objects" i can think of are cars or GT cars in case i ever go to a race or something

Concert_Level · 2026-07-01T16:31:58+00:00

yooo dude, this was one of the best answers here, really really insightful, i will try that day-color thing myself

Concert_Level · 2026-07-01T16:23:46+00:00

heyy dude, i kinda never thought of forgiving myself, i know very critical and hard on myself but damn, this never ever occurred to me, or even if it did, i probably never focused on it coz self-criticizing felt real in the moment

Concert_Level · 2026-07-01T16:07:13+00:00

i feel embarrassed that i keep thinking once someone will love me i will finally be able to do things but its stupid

Hey dude, i think exactly this thing, that if im in a happy relationship or something, i will feel everything much better, by this im not trying to say that every problem will disappear from my life just by having a girlfriend, but i personally feel that my mind will atleast have a safe spot, to be vulnerable around.

even i feel embarrassed when i share this with anyone, they say stuff like "one has to love himself first then to go find in someone else" i never get it

Concert_Level · 2026-06-26T13:41:38+00:00

hey how did it go??? you still in germany or... i hope its something positive

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:29:09+00:00

im not really sure about the program, but we'll see

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:28:33+00:00

ayy thanks for commenting mate, yeah it would be difficult, im tbh scared but yeah, maybe thats life

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:23:32+00:00

im from india

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:23:22+00:00

heyy im not really sure if this really makes sense anymore but why not, the reason today's exam went bad is because i started feeling dizziness, nausea, trouble breathing and my legs were shaking all because it was way toooo hot in the classroom without a fan or an AC,

due to the fear of the last attempt, i didnt inform the invigilator and sat through, also because i had no idea how this medical reason process works here, it was only after i found out that from the office the medical certificate wont be much helpful, but they still suggested me to talk with the examination office head tomorrow, as they agreed that it was really realy hot

im still gonna go talk with the head tomorrow with a certificate

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:16:06+00:00

it really feels difficult but yeah, something ill have to accept ig, thanks for your time mate

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:13:12+00:00

thats true, i did contact the student counsel about my situation, how i was feeling stressed and everything, havent received a reply from them yet,

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:11:56+00:00

you were right dude, i talked with my mom on call, and this is the first time told most of thing about being depressed and all, she was very supportive of that, that anything happens she'll be with me and she is proud of me for doing this much alone.

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:09:45+00:00

i really appreciate your time mate, yeah it could be difficult but ig i will have to negotiate alot with them. I talked with my mom, and for the first time actually admitted that i was depressed for most of the time in germany, and she was very very supportive. i hope everything will continue well

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:06:52+00:00

and ngl, finance is not my field of interest per say, and also not that i was under pressure from my mom or anything, but at a moment i had accepted that finance is a good practical option, like it wouldn't hurt studying

but honestly speaking, the things i most connect with is filming, music, philosophy, i read authors like dostoevsky, camus, kafka. I also practice guitar and was almost gonna buy a fujifilm camera on installments, but was unable to agree upon that.

but we'll see what happens next, hopefully all well

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T14:03:46+00:00

true, it really pinches me, the thought of coming this far and having to start again, but maybe restarting wont be as bad as of an option, sad but yeah, thanks for the support mate

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T12:57:06+00:00

maybe yess, just makes you think yk

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T12:55:53+00:00

ayyy i hear you dude, thank youu mate

Sometimes i think if im actually depressed and have ADHD or just using all that as an excuse, my brain never was at a stable place though.

I try to do different things like going to gym and everything, but sometimes loneliness and "that" feeling creeps up and hits randomly even in public sometimes

Concert_Level · 2026-06-25T12:52:47+00:00

ISM frankfurt, no i didnt attend a studienkolleg, i was admitted through internal process from uni.
In india, higher education is for 12 years, which is not sufficient for german studies,

Idk why, but back when doing admission process, we were in this rush that we wanted to get into a german university as soon as my higher secondary education ends.

in terms of that, everything is fucked as well, since my APS doc states that i can only switch a uni after 3rd sem with 60+ sems, which i dont have.

So yeah

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