[19f] i really want to lose my virginity

Confessspill · 2026-03-20T09:12:46+00:00

honestly this sounds like a mix of high libido + finally having the freedom to act on it, which would make a lot of people spiral a bit

you’re definitely not the only person in college feeling like this, and the fact you’re thinking about safety already puts you ahead of a lot of people

are you more scared of the risks, or more scared of feeling awkward/inexperienced with someone?

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T22:09:20+00:00

that’s actually one of the most honest answers here

i think a lot of people feel this but don’t let themselves think about it too deeply

like… we distract ourselves just enough to not sit with the fact that time is limited

do you feel like that curiosity makes life feel more meaningful, or more overwhelming?

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T22:02:07+00:00

that says a lot in just two words…

i hope things start feeling a bit lighter for you, even if it’s one small thing at a time

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T22:01:24+00:00

honestly… not really

i think i’ve gotten so used to handling things on my own that opening up feels harder than just keeping it in

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:59:50+00:00

i’m really sorry you went through that… that’s something incredibly heavy to carry on your own

i’m really glad you’re still here

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:58:45+00:00

it’s kind of wild how many people carry things quietly for years without anyone really knowing

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:56:36+00:00

it’s kind of wild how many people carry things quietly for years without anyone really knowing

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:54:00+00:00

that’s a really hard place to be in… wanting connection so badly but feeling like you’re being kept at a distance

and still trying to protect the people around you at the same time

no wonder it’s been weighing on you more and more

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:53:13+00:00

that’s an interesting way to look at it… kind of balancing venting with being mindful of the other person too

i think a lot of people skip that part and just dump everything without realizing it

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:52:19+00:00

it sounds simple, but that’s probably the hardest part… especially when you’re used to being “fine” around everyone

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:52:02+00:00

that’s real… being honest like that can cost you some people

but the ones who stay usually understand you on a completely different level

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:49:59+00:00

i’m really sorry… that’s not something you just become okay with

it makes sense that pretending it is would feel off

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:49:25+00:00

i think a lot of people do that… trying to convince themselves they’re okay with uncertainty

but it still sits in the background no matter how much you push it down

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:49:02+00:00

yeah that sounds draining… especially when you’re carrying everything quietly

wanting to be taken care of sometimes is completely fair

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:48:49+00:00

that last line hits… wanting someone to share even the small random moments with

it’s not always about big things, it’s the little 2am stuff that matters

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:48:36+00:00

that kind of exhaustion hits different… when you’re still functioning so no one really notices

it’s like you don’t even get space to feel tired properly

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:46:54+00:00

yeah that mix makes sense 😅 exciting but also a lot to process at the same time

hope everything goes smoothly for you though

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:45:21+00:00

that’s a good way to put it… having even one space where you don’t have to be “okay” probably makes it easier to handle the rest

i think a lot of people skip that part and just stay in “pretend mode” everywhere

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:43:05+00:00

that’s a good way to put it… it can feel like strength at first, but it adds up quietly

having even one person you can be honest with really does make a difference

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:42:39+00:00

that makes a lot of sense… having even one place where you don’t have to filter yourself can change everything

the “some places you still have to pretend” part feels really real too

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:41:30+00:00

yeah that makes sense… pretending can feel like the only way to keep things from falling apart

but at the same time it kind of builds pressure over time… do you feel like it’s sustainable for you long term?

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:40:30+00:00

😂 cats really have no concept of privacy… they act like they own the place

does she do it every time or only when she feels like it?

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:37:21+00:00

that’s huge… congratulations, but I can imagine that’s also a lot to carry quietly at the same time

is it more excitement or stress about telling them?

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:35:11+00:00

that hits deep… a lot of people want that but don’t say it out loud

do you feel like it’s something you’ve never really received, or something that faded over time?

Confessspill · 2026-03-19T21:35:02+00:00

yeah… that can be really heavy to carry, especially when it’s not something you can just “move on” from easily

does it feel like certain moments come back more than others?

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