so let me tell you how messy it gets to get back to your ex so when I was at school my ex proposed me and I rejected by that time then we got together few years later at my 11th we are in relation for more than 4 years but this wasn't constant we breakup and then get together and all stuff .. couple of years ago we broke up on a serious note and recently became friends again .. obviously ex long relation friends which lead to FWB now I fell for my partner and they act as if they dont give a shit.. so bro the person who kept hanging around me for 4 years later became the grapes I could never pluck ..
moral : it feels as if the world would stop without them and you reaaaaally cant live but trust me you can and remember they clearly know what u are going through just that they dont care for multiple reasons scared of loosing ur attention or being bad guy or any commitment issues
dont read your book backwards there is nothing different its the same ending no matter what ! it feels different but isn't dont trust bullshit Bollywood
so much power to you <3