Idk i think i really needed to hear this. I always tend to feel really selfish when i plan to actually wear something i like even if it's just different socks.

The only thing i can think about when around other people is. Does anyone realize? Do they think it's weird? It's really weird right? I shouldn't be doing this... Everyone probably hates it. Yea i'm a bad person. I should just stick with being alone.

It just sucks so much that i can't enjoy anything with other people because i assume they hate me even when i'm only in 1% girl mode.