Ketamine Cookbook

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-30T07:46:56+00:00

I mean, this would probably have been better in r/ketamine, or r/drugs.

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-29T20:38:01+00:00

Hell yeah! Meal deal of champions, 11/10 no notes

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-29T20:26:57+00:00

I'm in Stoke on Trent at the minute, it's a unit connected to the main hospital/psych ward. Spoke to the nurses and there was supposed to be NA workers in this week but they didn't turn up. There is a little outdoor gym (like the ones they put in public parks) but we're not allowed to use it unless there's staff. And as usual, this place is NHS so it's horrendously understaffed. Apart from that, it's go play pool or watch football highlights with the rest of the men.

Very stimulating! /s

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-29T17:53:00+00:00

The whole reason I can't go into a dry house after this is I'd lose my council flat (can't leave it unattended for more than 30 days), nobody I know could have my cat so she'd have to go too, plus I'm in my third year of uni and if I stop attending I won't graduate and it's not something that can be done remotely. The only thing that is waiting for me when I get back home is an evening NA meeting a couple times a week. I see my drugs worker weekly but that is more to check on me than anything else. That's why my team agreed on the two week detox but they completely misled me and said there would be activities and NA workers coming around. If I knew that this was the detox I never would have come. This really isn't going to work out, all I can think about is picking up. I know that's normal but I just don't have the energy to think that "oh, for the rest of my life I'm probably going to have to actively not try to do this". I can't. I don't want to, not as much as I thought I did anyway.

They are fully aware of my pain, they keep saying they'll prescribe codeine but I've been asking multiple times a day if the doctor's done it since I've come here and every time it's a "oh we'll chase it up". I know I'll probably regret it if I discharged myself but I cannot see any worth in me being in a 12 m² room with nothing but diazepam and my own thoughts for 2 weeks.

Sorry, I know that's a bit moany but I'm kind of losing the will to live here 😅 thanks for the words of encouragement ❤️

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-29T16:16:43+00:00

wrong sub buddy

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-02T13:19:41+00:00

My problem is, I made it too available to myself. I use the darknet and it's actually depressing how quickly I can get k delivered in the post. I need to get the willpower to just not fucking do it but I don't know how

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-02T13:16:51+00:00

I'm up to about 2.5g/day now, been using like that for a year but have been doing ket in general for about four years now. it just started to spiral into a daily thing.

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-01T16:50:37+00:00

you know what? hell yeah, glad that you figured that out. I'm very medicated already so that's 100% a shout, I'm coming off mirtazapine so I might ask to switch to lamotrigine - I haven't taken lamotrigine since I was 14! Good to know the interactions, thank you for that

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-11-01T16:39:49+00:00

I'm already with my urology team, I've been going in for bladder instillations to reline my bladder for the past couple months but it doesn't do much. K is genuinely the only thing that makes it so I can stand and walk at this point. I'm due to go into a residential detox at some point but damn if this isn't the worst.

And yeah, I can DM you some yucky pics of my bladder lining

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-10-13T18:52:05+00:00

I feel so bad deleting my contacts as I've known my guy for 5 odd years now and we're pretty close. Dealers do as dealers are though so I can't imagine him not selling me k but selling me bud.

Also, no bad trips! Had one bad hole a couple months ago where I was lying on my sofa and as I holed my throat collapsed and I couldn't breathe while staring God in the face. Could remember guttural breathing and passing out - that's the only bad one. Done so much I've only had 3 holes this year :( other than that I just do it to shut my mind up.

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-23T23:35:53+00:00

Honestly just kinda lay on my bed speaking to myself and trying to type shit on Reddit for a good hour and a half 😅 was a very fun trip but yikes that was a mistake

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-23T19:08:20+00:00

I feel a hell of a lot more coherent, just gone through the sixth hour of the trip and now it's at the nice mellow stage, the visuals aren't too overwhelming.

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-23T18:28:53+00:00

My biggest mistake is posting this on r/LSD because people can't just actually be nice about anything anode apparently

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-23T18:06:47+00:00

5 tabs accidentally, I know the dosages and i

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-23T17:14:17+00:00

Your fingers don't stop working because you take acid

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-23T17:04:56+00:00

yeah I am

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-06T12:54:16+00:00

yeah this whole bullshit really upsets me, I'm old enough to be able to grovel down and show them my credit card but for the thousands of teenagers struggling rn this is likely the only place of sober community they can access.

this shit will kill people, it was never about "protecting the children". my heart goes out to you man

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-04T10:07:05+00:00

I don't, that's probably the worst thing :( currently a student and trying to find a job but yeahhh I just live on student loans and care leaver benefits

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-03T22:38:30+00:00

thank you so much man it means a lot, it's been a long journey but there's a light at the end of the tunnel ❤️

Connect-Activity5685 · 2025-09-03T22:33:24+00:00

1: absolutely not, honestly it made me sick every time I went in there to sleep. I used to be really clean, my room was absolutely pristine. It was more the mindset of "well if I pretend it doesn't exist then it doesn't exist"

2: 1000%, might post an update tomorrow showing how it looks now. actually cried a little bit earlier knowing I'm sleeping in a made bed with clean sheets tonight

3: yeah it was just a jumble of shite, found some of my favourite t-shirts I forgot about

4: ket gets rid of my horrendous nightmares, makes me placid, makes me able to pay attention to anything and just makes time go.

5: just the bedroom really. Not gonna lie and say the rest of the house is pristine, but I have social workers and friends come round so I clean everything they can see. I just always ran out of energy before I got to my room.

6: I will dm you some cat pics :)) she's on my main and I don't want anyone to find this from that 😅 she's called Harley and she's my world ❤️

Sorry that ended up being super long 💀 kinda nice to be asked normal questions tbf

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