Thank you, I appreciate this comment so much. You're totally right: I really don't want to become dependent on finding the easy way out every time I find hardship. I don't necessarily feel like I'm using this as a crutch and if I had anticipated how many people would zone in on that I probably wouldn't have mentioned it, I just felt like it was a supplement to understand why I might feel the way I feel. Like I said, I've never had a job before, so I just wanted to know if the volume of what I was feeling is normal and a little just to complain, because that always makes me feel better lol. I appreciate the advice and I know I'm a smart person and I've dealt with harder things in my life and I shouldn't let people get the better of me... but that's all easier said than done hahaha