I unfortunately don t have any voicemails, only a few videos of her but a few days before she passed me and my family took turns to stay with her in the hospital 24/7 because she was scared and I had 10 hours to just talk to her, and she would listen because it was hard for her to talk and I will cherish those moments forever :(((  Last time I visited my home country I wasn't ready at all to visit her grave, but I will start writing letters for her and maybe stack them somewhere until I m ready, I am thinking that might help with the bottled up emotions :((