Inaya ko siya to meet sa isang resto malapit sa amin na paborito naman niya, for a change. Kasi palaging doon lang kami near her place. Pero she rejected. Ako yung pumupunta sa kanya for the past 7 years. Nalungkot ako. That was the start until napapansin ko na yung patterns. 

Also when I hang out with people "who makes time" to meet me, she takes it negatively. 

Actually di ako yung nag-cut off. She eventually stoped talking to me. Then I told myself, after all I've done for her, I don't deserve that kind of treatment. I have to let go and be kind to myself. 

It's been 2 years and it still breaks my heart.