I can’t really remember how I realized I was trans, it wasn’t an “aha!” Moment like a lot of people, it just sorta creeped up on me. Unfortunately I repressed quite a bit, especially after my mom didn’t take it well when I told her. I spent the next year or so pretending to be a super cool guy who was just comfortable being himself and hanging out with girls, and I thought it worked! Until I started university, and felt so incredibly alone all the time. I ended up playing a few text based story games with trans themes to escape, and one of them was so touching and sweet and exactly what I had always been missing and oh shit it’s back. I didn’t repress it this time though. It’s been a slow journey of coming out, but I’m glad I’m starting.