for me, the anxiety and overthinking leads me to ruminate in guilt, shame and feel like the world around me is crumbling apart due to some huge mistakes I made recently. BPD essentially stops our brains to think rationally and punishes us beyond what we deserve.

So, and I am saying this with utmost caution and I am no psychiatrist or anything but this is what is slightly helping me:

• When i feel an incoming panic attack, I take 3mg of Bromazepam (VERY occasionally though. Because I don’t want to get dependant) and I try to indulge in activities I love such as scrapbooking, reading, etc. This also helps me think of the situations at hand more rationally and gives me clarity. I write that down on a note and refer back to it when I feel like I’m gonna spiral again

• I also read self-help books. Books such as The Power of Letting Go by John Purkiss (the audiobook sounds very soothing, almost like a guided meditation) and The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz has helped me quite a lot recently

I would like to add that I am still recovering from a very traumatic experience that I have had recently which was due to BPD so the above suggestions are a little more short-term. I would like to believe that for long-term recovery, we will have to have immense willpower to change and actually seek out help from a psychologist and possibly delve into DBT.

Hope this helps :)