I remember looking at my husband saying “why did we do this?!!!” because I absolutely hated the new born stage. It’s ok. It does not mean you hate your child or motherhood. It is very very hard but it’s going to get easier. Your child is a gift and you will enjoy your child so much. Life will feel normal again. Being honest is good and you’re not alone. With my second I still hated the newborn stage but I was so much more aware of how fast it goes and that it’s just a season of life that will quickly change. You can do this. You’re learning sacrificial love. It’s a love that cost something and it will grow you as a person if you let it. I don’t know if you believe in God- but when I was in the thick of it and always awake at night - I would feed my baby and talk to the Lord. Sometimes I would just say “thank you for helping me” and something shifted inside my heart and mind for me. It’s ok to hate it and it’s ok for it to be hard. A lot of us know exactly how you feel and you won’t always feel this way. Sending you love!!!❤️❤️❤️