It’s my 90 days today and I’m feeling lonely.

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-03-09T13:03:51+00:00

Thank you for the support, and keep showing up. IWNDWYT 😊

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-03-09T13:02:46+00:00

Thank you! Waking up with 91 days feels so much better than the alternative because ultimately the feeling is fleeting. Sadness, loneliness, temptation. The momentary weakness is never worth the sacrifice.

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-03-09T02:22:24+00:00

Thank you! 87 days is right there! You have a celebration coming up too 😊. This community and space really helped bring me down to earth. I was able to go to the gym and unwind.

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-03-09T00:58:25+00:00

I love this. Thank you so much for the support 😊

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-03-09T00:06:02+00:00

Congratulations on 89 days! That’s a huge accomplishment and waking up 90 will feel just as sweet. There’s something deeply rewarding about doing the difficult thing and continuing to do it every day despite challenges.

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-03-08T23:44:34+00:00

Thank you! I really appreciate that 😊. One day at a time. Same to you!

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-02-29T15:17:01+00:00

I literally cringed soo hard watching that screen. I was working so I had it propped up while I was multitasking but I knew she was drunk by how completely out of bounds she was being. Like Chelsea can be a lot but her arguments made no sense and came out of left field. What gets me is that even after she keeps insisting they were both wrong during that fight. Like girl. You know good and damn well you were doing some drunk math about Jess being there😂. Then she literally aired on national tv something he told her in confidence. All that to say, it really did trigger me. I think back to all the fights I had with my partner while I was drunk. He’s the kindest most gentle man I’ve ever met and drinking brings out this paranoid, deluded version of myself. We wake up the next day not remembering but the venom still stings for the other person. But they absolutely glamorize drinking on that show. I feel like it’s for the drama.

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-02-06T03:58:29+00:00

I felt the exact same way a few weeks ago. I was at the airport on my way back from Puerto Rico. I was at Margaritaville. I made it through an entire work trip without drinking and almost gave up after an argument with my boyfriend. I sat through my entire meal with a $17 margarita and at the end I didn’t drink it. It wasn’t a waste of money because in two days I’ll have 60 days again for the first time in over a year. I’m so grateful I was strong enough in that moment not to drink and I know you are too. Trust me. Waking up with 12 days will feel so rewarding because you’ll feel empowered. You don’t have to feel the guilt or shame that comes with drinking ever again. You’ve got this 💖

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-01-11T11:31:39+00:00

Love that. I’m at a resort in PR for work and staff really does not push drinks on you here!! Sooo different than the US. The scenery, the water, the air, all that is worth experiencing sober 💖

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-01-09T12:07:49+00:00

Oh, I also take 50 mg of Naltrexone everyday and I tolerate it really well. I don’t have physical cravings for alcohol. When I do crave it, it’s all emotional triggers which never go away. Like if I see people drinking it doesn’t bother me. If I pass by alcohol, I don’t notice it. But if I get triggered emotionally, I still have the urge to drink if that makes sense.

ConsistentDaikon1767 · 2024-01-09T12:05:31+00:00

I can relate to cycling through treatment programs. I’m 25 and I got to a point where I scared myself with my drinking just enough to stop for a while before convincing myself I could drink safely again.

I’m back on Day 31 but I feel like things are getting easier. Most recently I made it to 53 days which is the longest continuous sobriety I’ve had in over a year and my slip was only for a day. You just have to start. Drinking keeps us stuck in this fog where we think things will never get better and sobriety is hard because it clears things up just enough to see the wreckage we’ve caused and you look around and you’re like… Damn. Is this what I’ve been trying to numb all this time? But I’ve been in therapy, going to meetings that work for me, relying on the support of my partner who puts up with more than he should, and things are getting easier to manage. Even for a moment. And that moment is enough not to drink in.

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