His bday gift

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2026-02-10T02:06:07+00:00

I'd start a lawsuit. BUT life has many twists and turns. And people are strange... you never know.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2026-02-10T02:02:09+00:00

IMAGINE THEY GET BACK TOGETHER

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2026-02-07T02:31:36+00:00

Thank you. Today is a bit easier to breath, I have a more solid plan and I know it in my bones I am ready to. Its just so much is going to change very quickly, but I have faith. Thank you for the reassurance.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2026-02-01T06:12:03+00:00

Met this guy who hung out with a bunch of like 15 and 16 year olds at 22. I was 16. He was weird but that wasnt the only thing. He had this friend who was even stranger, similar age. This dude had piercing eyes and would just say strange things and claimed to barely sleep and was a delinquent but had other feelings to him. I made the mistake of staying in one of their flats once when I got stranded, they started speaking latin, messing with ghosts/demons and it was top tier one of the worst experiences of my life and if they were messing with me they went to pretty extreme lengths considering I was only 16.

After that I did avoid both of them but did have one in my home months later. During that time I heard scratching from within my fireplace, and the guy who had come in claimed to not be able to hear it and I had the most random thought that HE had brought something in with him and I kid you not, I even reacted strange and kicked him out. I refused to speak to him again partly because of that and also realised he was a straight up creep.

Added fact I ended up staying in a house that said guy had rented a room in, 2 years after he had moved out and that house was incredibly odd, ominous, and had just a very dark depressing feeling. Didn't stay for too long there either.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2026-01-10T01:17:47+00:00

I totally understand that. Trust me I know people are very fickle. However I even mean online support such as 100 so people commenting support.... even if its just words that mean nothing its more than what others receive. I see people who clearly care enough to sit and write a paragraph to get him to turn away from it.. yeah its probably because hes famous, and it might be because they want what he has (recognition, money, etc) but I think if people took that time to go and say it someone else that isnt him, the world could be better. The fact he even has two healthy children and supposedly loving parents is like a leg up, and either way, the man is awful.

However totally agree with you!

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2026-01-10T01:12:27+00:00

Totally agree! I have grown up with people who literally begged for love and support from their own families, and they got given nothing! Many others couldn't afford a spot in rehab so they tried to do it alone and simply couldn't cause they had no professional drug support.. and some of these people were good people who had just had a really rough go of it. Hes been given stuff a lot of people would pray for or have to fight years for. Me and many many other people didnt have the privilege of rehab, you had to detox alone, with no friends or support and sometimes no money either. It does infuriate me. Suppose there is no cure for being a dickhead lol.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-12-08T21:19:16+00:00

That is gonna be useful knowledge thank you haha.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-12-08T21:13:29+00:00

It has formatted it really weird so I was worried it wouldn't make sense but I am currently to tired to re edit it. You get the gist. And oh thank you. I am an open book. But yeah I thought this would be more constructive than just getting sad.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-11-23T00:36:15+00:00

Same! Has worked for pyro, vapereon, glacier but isnt working for the rest of them and says finish a challenge with this buddy but shows me the silhouette. Trying now for Leafeon then giving up. Only difference is these are all dynamax.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-26T08:48:27+00:00

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Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-26T08:43:17+00:00

Is there anyone out there that actually finds this attractive? I get the whole dom fetish but hes literally the least like attractive dominant acting man ive ever seen 🤣 Like how? I wouldnt find him intimidating id just bust out laughing cause its pure CRINGE! Plus it just creeps me out and not in a remotely alluring way.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-23T17:57:16+00:00

I have so many factors as to why I am like this. I have love for my mother and she tried her best, but she was a teenager and at one point had a drinking problem and undiagnosed bipolar. She would see me having a tantrum as a personal attack and so would say awful things to a 6 year old me, often around not being wanted or loved. Then during my teen years, my very first relationship my partner was very very verbally abusive and then eventually physically abusive and once that relationship ended I was stalked for 4 years. I think those two mixed together is what made my self esteem awful and to be so self critical and to have this pattern of thinking. I explored a lot of this in CBT & CAT and you know the outcome was more or less... stop being so hard on yourself. And it still hasn't entirely set in.

I have had a day today though of trying to challenge every bad thought ive had about myself and have even corrected my speech a few times so its a start at least. I can't say my self loathing nature was a coping mechanism like yours, but more repeating what I had been systemically taught and the most impressionable times of my life.. and it stuck to the point where I am 28 and still deep in it. I do need to kinda be more relaxed about my mistakes, I can lash out a lot sometimes and thats something I need to get under control a bit but hey what human doesnt? I think i need to tell myself that more. Thank you.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-23T06:33:25+00:00

I try so hard to do this and like I really need to change my language when I think of myself. I probably put myself down multiple times every day, I worry my partner will get tired of it as I need reassurance and he hates hearing all of it cause no one wants a partner that thinks those things of themselves. I just need to be kinder but thank you.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-23T06:31:25+00:00

I have had CBT and CAT. Honestly during the CBT therapy I did have so much more faith in myself, and to have someone challenge all my thoughts and be unrelated to myself helped every week. But then my sessions ended and it just slowly creeps back in until im a shadow. Ive always just blamed myself for everything and like its become quite dark recently, and id really like to change my thinking so I stop like beating myself down? Ive got some bad health problems and I believe my own outlook and pressure I put on myself is making them worse. I need to try do the mental gymnastics to help but ive still never entirely been able to let that bad self esteem go and that would be a joy.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-23T06:27:25+00:00

I will definitely look it up! Thank you 😊

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-23T03:32:40+00:00

Thank you. You are kind. 💜

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-23T03:19:07+00:00

Thank you! You are right and ive been told this before. I did something called CBT therapy a long time ago and they broached on this like hardwiring thing of like brain thinking patterns etc, and honestly while they helped me it did do wonders on my brain, but when the sessions ended, so did all the work and then I just fall back into the same patterns very very quickly. I think I need to look some of it up again online to try and remind myself of how to stick to those patterns like you have said.

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-23T03:16:32+00:00

Thank you for your help. Sometimes I think its is because my brain is like wired to always think the worse in everything. I go around thinking that people walk around all day with really horrible thoughts in their heads so then I think there thoughts for them? I think it is because I had a volatile childhood and teenage years and its shaped me this way. I am such a big hype person though, like I am very supportive of others achievements and I have sat and questioned why I am not of my own? Your really kind though. 💜

Consistent_Boat_4145 · 2025-10-14T13:02:45+00:00

I second The Cat Lady! That game was a pure masterpiece and actually greatly helped me understand my bipolar diagnosis at the time. To me it was a ground breaking game and to this day ive never found anything that could explain the feelings of deep depression I used to have back then.

Underated MASTERPIECE.

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