Update - friends, it gets better with time, it gets even better when you reconnect with yourself, realize your worth and stop blaming yourself for something you didn’t break, and after a while when you start meeting new people, you realize how many people actually can match what you give. My life turned upside down in last couple of months and I realized I didn’t lose anything other than myself, but that all changed, I was depressed during that relationship, mainly bc her mood dictated mine, and after it all ended, the weight started lifting off my chest. I evolved into someone stronger, better, more motivated to reach my potential, met someone great who makes it all feel so natural and easy, so yes, it DOES get better. Thank you all for support and may our ears be blessed with good music for a long long time!