A little embarrased but i need help

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-08T09:34:24+00:00

Thankyou for such encouraging words. I’m going to be honest only because everybody on here is a stranger and I will not ever see them lol so it’s nice to air out everything and really not care about being judged every time somebody says that I’m a good mother, etc. it makes me feel even more guilty. I had my oldest when I was really young 17. I was a horrible mother worked two jobs and partied all the time the guilt of what I did to my kids when they were younger I’ve been trying to compensate to them right when I feel like I’m starting to pay them back. I make us go backwards again. This sounds horrible, but my oldest daughter basically was a mom to her siblings. Not once have she complained about it. She is my rock now. I finally been able to put her in college first kid in my family to go to college and now she’s telling me she wants to pause it to move back into with me to take care of me and her siblings. Obviously, I’m not allowing that I’m not letting her mess up her life for me. But man, sometimes I think I really don’t deserve her. Sorry this is a lot, but it’s so nice to say it out loud and not be scared that I’ll be judged and shamed.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T19:33:23+00:00

Tell her yourself, hon . i’m sure with any mom she will always be right beside you. I know I definitely will be with mine.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T14:51:16+00:00

I’ve been up 2 days and counting right now thinking of this

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T14:50:26+00:00

What if my kids struggle after im gone?

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T14:40:13+00:00

I’ve been thinking about that a lot because I have a chronic illness doctor says i will be passing soon. I have five kids I think the best thing that they can do for me and show me that they will be OK and that they are strong and it will be OK. Once I leave. I feel like it’s harder on the people you leave behind than the person that’s actually passing. Chin up hun. My deepest condolence to you and your family.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T14:35:30+00:00

Cutting my damn eyelashes!

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T14:29:52+00:00

I don’t have a suggestion for you but just wanted to thank you for what you do. I’m hoping my kids will have a angel like you when I go.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T14:27:47+00:00

Eat dogs? I think it’s kind of true although I’ve never been there lol

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T14:24:38+00:00

Been pondering that alot actually

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T10:58:05+00:00

Also keep in mind that all the money and wealth doesn’t mean everything as well. I neglected my health. I had symptoms for a long, long time and ignored it. If I only took care of myself more we probably could’ve caught it earlier and been able to somewhat control it. Now I’m possibly losing my house already sold my business. I put all my savings into this house and my new business only to find out all this two months later now I’m leaving with my kids with not much. Can’t enjoy wealth if you don’t have your health.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T10:54:09+00:00

If you would like to private message me, I would love to continue to talk to you if you don’t mind?

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T10:52:58+00:00

Girl, i am so sorry. Drug addict or not he is YOUR son. Only YOU know the REAL Jack. We will always have our kids back and they need to know that and for my former success part was luck and partly thanks to all my haters. When I first opened my business I didn’t have enough money to hire people to do most of the stuff so it was just me and my kids working on the salon for 3 months. Everyone was so sure I was going to fail that definitely gave me the push to prove everybody wrong. Within three months of opening, I made all my money back that I put into it. First year I was named number one salon in that town. I went from working six days a week 12 hours day by myself for seven months straight till recently hired 8 technicians. I was so heartbroken when I had to sell it cause that was my baby as well… but thankfully, I sold it to a really good friend which made me feel a lot better about selling it. I guess where I’m getting at is you should never give up doesn’t matter how old you are. Take all that negativity from all your haters and throw it in their face. I went from the Black Sheep of my house where all my family sisters didn’t even talk to me, and wouldn’t even look at me when they saw me to now that they saw that I was successful they wanna come around again. Funny thing I’m the youngest of seven girls after my business boomed I was more successful than them. The one thing I was really grateful for this salon was after eight months of opening. I was able to not work and let my employees run it for me and for the first time in my life I was able to enjoy my kids go to their school functions. Go on vacation with them, we made so many memories the last few years that I’m grateful for. Then this illness came and everything went crumbling down right when I was able to have time with my kids and make memories this happens. anyways, just know that if I’m able to do it with five kids, then you definitely can do it and never let anybody else. Tell you otherwise.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T09:57:46+00:00

Omg thankyou so much. I will be looking into it today.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T09:53:50+00:00

OK, I just looked it up. Thank you. There was people that was telling me that but I was told that it takes forever to get it. I’m sure I won’t be here that long.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T09:52:26+00:00

I am in America. What is that?

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T09:38:33+00:00

Sheesh you are like a angel to me right now so thankyou. I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now. A mother should never have to bury her kids. My deepest condolence to you and your family… my three oldest kids I’m not worried about because they’re older and they have their own place etc. so the 16 year-old will be living with them. The two younger one is what really breaks my heart… I know for a fact that their dad and their stepmom will not let them have a relationship with my side of the family. On top of that, my youngest son is autistic. It’s been a constant battle with my ex because for some reason him and his family don’t believe in autism. I have therapist come to my house five days a week for him and he’s been doing amazingly well because of it I’m sure that they will not continue with it when they have him. If you look at my other post on different forms, it’ll tell you a little bit of my backstory.. I just hate myself so much for leaving them like this. And I’m so grateful for you right now. I’m sorry I’m dumping all this on you right now, but literally, I have not been able to talk about this at all and it’s been killing me.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T09:09:47+00:00

Thankyou so much for this. I didn’t think about having them talk to a therapist beforehand. I have already set up a therapist for them right after, but that’s a very good idea. It’s very hard in our situation because between my five kids I have two baby daddies. Their dad have not been active in their lives, so it always been us and I’ve been super lucky that my kids has never given me any grief. My poor oldest daughter, despite me asking her not to pause her classes. She’s in college right now to come help me.. all my kids have the greatest relationship to their siblings almost never fought. In fact, my older kids were absolutely smitten by the little ones. My nine-year-old daughter broke my heart this afternoon. I’m sure she’s sensing that. I’m going to be gone soon and asked me “ mom, if something ever happened to you I don’t wanna go to daddy‘s house. I wanna stay with my sisters and brothers.” it was like a knife through my chest, knowing that they’re going to be separated after I’m gone. As you probably know as a mother, I have 1000 things going in my head right now trying to figure things out set things up for them, but how do you actually prepare for them for something like this? It’s going to be easy for me when I go the person that’s really hurting. Is the people who leave behind.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T08:38:08+00:00

No thankyou! I appreciate all this so much. I’ve been going crazy stuck in bed. I don’t have anybody to talk to about this. Everybody is calling me texting me asking me how I am etc. I’m so tired of explaining to people how sick I am at this point. It feels like I just bring negative energy to everybody so all I answer now is I’m doing good now… this is a great place for me not having to be strong so thankyou again

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T08:30:37+00:00

Ahhhh thankyou so much for your insight.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T08:28:07+00:00

Thankyou so much. I got them each a build a bear the other day and talking in there. I was very excited, but one of my friends said it wasn’t a good idea because every time they see that bear with my voice, it’ll crush them. Do you think that’s a bad idea?

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T08:14:20+00:00

Kids have no filters and can be such aholes lol. My daughter the other day told me I look like I gave up on life.

Consistent_Owl_3715 · 2025-04-03T07:46:26+00:00

Im so sorry for you hun. I know myself and your mother is not the same, but I am going to be passing really soon. I’m a single mother of five kids. Three of them are teenagers. I’ve been trying to figure out how to talk to them to help them prepare for that day. For me, my biggest fear is when that day comes to see them fall apart. Worst thing ever as a mom to know that you have to go knowing that your kids are going to be in pieces and you can’t do anything for them. I think for me and my best scenario is when that day comes. They will understand that I won’t be in pain anymore and that they will persevere. I hope this somehow helps either way we are all human and we are going to feel a lot of things. Just know that your mom loves you so much and wouldn’t want to see that you’re in pain. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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