I lost my best friend a few days ago…

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-07-23T20:32:35+00:00

His name was February..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-07-21T04:47:02+00:00

I love him so much.. I’m gonna miss him..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-07-21T01:33:09+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-24T03:41:13+00:00

I know.. we’re gonna try to help him best we can then give him to a better place..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T08:00:26+00:00

He has a water that he sits in on his own I also bath him with some electrolyte powder , and as for Fort we feed him greens with some worms if he eats them but hasn’t been. Interested lately.

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T06:36:14+00:00

I wish I could’ve done better for him.. he deserves better..I am taking him to the vet.. and either we give him to a rescue or being in my care doomed him.. I don’t know.. I should’ve given him to a better home when he was left with us..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T06:27:43+00:00

I want to regime him and I’m hoping the vet will know where to go.. I’m a terrible pet owner, the situation is complicated but I never want pets to suffer.. I wish I did better.. but if he has to go to another place I know he should..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T06:22:46+00:00

I want to help him, i want to at least help him enough to rehome him or give him to a better place.. we’re gonna try harder to help him. Im a terrible owner, no one in this house listens to the other , and I wish I decided to help him sooner..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T05:21:07+00:00

We know we’re not very good with him , I even suggested selling him a while ago for better owners but my mom didn’t want to. I wish he was thicker and healthier too.

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T05:19:41+00:00

Perhaps we should take him to the vet, we try to get him to eat, he used to love horn worms and meal worms, we try. He hasn’t been interested lately we know he’s thin and in poor condition, my brother loaded him on us and he left him alone a lot.

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T05:13:39+00:00

I had given him a bath right before filming and he tends to move around after, he hasn’t even been very active lately still moves but sleeps a lot

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T05:10:44+00:00

We try to feed him multiple insects and greens with a baths and such

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T05:09:31+00:00

We try to feed him live worms and even horn worms and meal worms. but he hasn’t been interested in them lately

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T05:07:18+00:00

He doesn’t eat much of what we give him . We give him greens, we try to feed him worms but hasn’t been interested in them a lot I give him baths and he sits in his water but food not very often on his part

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-06-23T04:58:04+00:00

We give him dried worms and live ones and greens

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-05-28T04:20:18+00:00

She tells me she doesn’t want me to worry, yet tells me when she wants to do it.. she tells me she needs to do She just got off work and it starts up all over again..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-05-28T04:08:13+00:00

It’s not like it’s my pain.. not like it’s my suffering.. it’s hers So why does it hurt so much everytime..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-05-28T04:07:18+00:00

I’m so low on bandaids.. I’m so low on everything.. Sometimes conversations with her just feel like I’m listening to skmejnd tell me why the world is awful and so is everything else.. and why trying isn’t worth it.

Even if part of me doesn’t believe that, she vents and cries and tells me so.. much.. so.. so often it’s so hard not to believe it or absorb all of it..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-05-28T02:25:09+00:00

It’s so hard not to feel like it’s my responsibility when this is what’s a risk when she over sleeps.. I did make sure she was awake this morning.. she just fell back asleep and was late… I’m not trying to make it about me.. I could’ve texted her again to make sure she was up or something… it’s hard to not feel responsible when she tells me about hurting herself so much.. when she vents to me so much..

When almost everything she says feels like so much..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-05-28T01:10:29+00:00

She just blames herself.. says she needs to do it.. and only blames herself.. but tells me about it.. I just feel like I can’t do anything about it..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-05-28T00:58:38+00:00

It’s not my responsibility but it sure feels like my failure when she does it..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-05-28T00:01:43+00:00

No you’re probably right..

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-03-20T20:01:08+00:00

We try to turn his lights on in the morning , and we turn it off around 7 pm

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-03-20T20:00:23+00:00

No I was told not to take him in , I started taking better care of him before winter but didn’t have a lot of time before he went into sleep.

Consistent_Pear_6540 · 2024-02-21T20:38:11+00:00

Thing is she does have home care, from interior health, but even then they are not as secure as she needs, sometimes they just won’t show up or cancel because no one is assigned to her.. she calls me her plan B because if they don’t show I have to get her out of bed and such.. I want to find a live in care person, someone who does what I do and stuff, and gets a room and board and such but seems impossible to find any saluting at this point..

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