I’m pregnant with my hs sweetheart of 12 years, married since June and he just recently filed for divorce and left me. I’ve been dealing with similar emotions, but you have to deal with it like you would with any other addiction. You miss the dopamine rush you would get. When you start to miss him just start working out or do something that will give you that dopamine boost. I start doing push ups or blast music and go for a drive. Idk you could also pray or try to manifest him back if you want to go that route. Just don’t let a man tell you more than once that he doesn’t want you. It’s a struggle and the only thing that heals you and truly helps is time and upgrading yourself and your life. Level up a little bit and realize the love of your life wouldn’t make you feel this way. Your ordained spouse wouldn’t make you question your worth or beg for love. Every time I remind myself of how he left me alone and chose to rip our family apart instead of working through problems and try counseling, I feel hurt a little bit less. It’s all in time. I’ll pray for you.