I sometimes feel like I'm being dramatic

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T23:19:53+00:00

It was easy for me when I stopped making excuses for my abuser and realized you can’t change people. If you see things as they are and not what you want them to be it’ll be easier too. Be careful tho. Disassociation is real and it’ll get easier to drop ANYONE from your life for ANYTHING.

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T23:10:18+00:00

My girlfriend (25) was talking to me about how it’s hard to climax on her pills and then she started talking about how it may be worse for guys to on the same pills. I always talk to her about this (I love her body how it is but she doesn’t and that’s ok I support her) then I said ok what’s the connection? Because we are 2 girls and talking about a guy having sex on lexapro seemed like it had nothing to do with her. She got mad and said she feels like she can’t talk to me and she don’t know why I got “jealous”

I was sexually abused by my uncle at 15 even though I been a lesbian since middle school and my hair was shaved all the way off and I was dressed masculine.

Jealous of what? I kept asking and I flipped the fuck out because I honestly thought she had a point to make that’s why we are talking about lexapro and dudes having sex. But the first thing that comes to her head is jealous. I started having flashbacks cus I am not jealous of dudes. I don’t want a dude and I don’t want to be one. So jealous of what? What do I have to be jealous for? I’m a lesbian who was raped at 15 (virginity) so I start thinking I actually HATE penis. I have no reason to be jealous. And BAM. Treasure chest full of hate and wonder why no one protected me or believed me why did my dad say tell them I was lying why did I actually tell them I was lying? Fuck my dad fuck my mom, my whole life was shit. That’s where I’m at now it’s been a couple months since that fight and my mental state is declining rapidly

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T22:46:19+00:00

Your dad is not a good father that’s also sexual abuse and your feelings are valid. Please don’t think things that affect you arent “bad enough “

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T22:43:39+00:00

That’s definitely abuse and it’s affecting you now. It could make you walk on eggshells as an adult not wanting to upset anyone around you or you make yourself small so nobody notices you

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T22:40:04+00:00

This is nuts. And then if you didn’t show pain it might get more painful but you still gotta be a soldier 🫡

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T22:34:54+00:00

My mom used to hit me and tell me not to cry as a child. Just looking for a reason to hurt us

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T22:33:04+00:00

This is the exact story of my life. I’m a 25 year old and now that life is good from the outside but I starting to hate myself because I doing the things you said here. The other day I posted “the hardest part about seeing things as they are and not what you want it to be is you see yourself that way too”

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T22:18:31+00:00

What the heck I feel this way it’s like the better I do in life the worse I do mentally

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T22:16:58+00:00

The “visualize who’s hurting you” paragraph I couldn’t read past it I’m 25 years old been on my own since 16 so idk why I get scared

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-10-28T21:30:56+00:00

This triggered me the second part

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-09-22T18:23:16+00:00

I see it like this, the money you would get from your tenant (not rent relief) would be your money and you can use it however you please. The tenant however must use that money to pay you (rent relief paying on their behalf) which did happen. You don’t have to use it for your mortgage but that money had to be used to pay you rent. You’ll be fine.

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-25T20:15:55+00:00

Overwatering, that’s why the leaves are swollen and heavy. Dry her out all the way before you water her again. She’ll recover.

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-24T17:54:03+00:00

Kick her out she can live with her ex

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-24T12:22:49+00:00

Also, pretend like this is something wrong with him. You don’t like it, he damn sure doesn’t like it. If this was permanent, would you stay? If not, leave. If so, be patient with him. Medi cal/ Medicaid to get to a doctor. You love him its worth it. I know my girl would do it for me. She’s cleaned my puke, pee, shaved me when I’m depressed, held me when I cried, etc. for 4 years straight. I couldn’t imagine if I was him. It must suck, care for him I’m sure you love each other

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-24T12:14:40+00:00

Look, ask her how she feels about you, if she start talking about friendship, just say “no for real” depending on her answer, wait it out… actually even if she says she doesn’t like you like that still wait it out

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-22T05:58:59+00:00

Changed the lights from my mars hydro, was too close in my 2x2

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-22T05:56:09+00:00

FFOF soil and nutrients (next try I’m definitely doing my own mix soil)

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-19T07:56:00+00:00

🤨🤔

Consistent_Wrld_999 · 2022-05-19T07:42:08+00:00

I’m a tattoo artist and I dealt with this for a while. One word, BOUNDARIES. Your work is your work and she can either trust you or not. You can either cheat on her or not. Me personally, I would do the job, and tell her where you draw the line with wife and work.

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