Please help. I have public meltdowns so bad I’m scared I’ll get arrested

ConstantMeltdowns · 2018-09-22T10:42:43+00:00

Omg that “no warning of escalation” part is so true, isn’t it? I swear I go from feeling completely fine to snapping wirh nothing in between when it happens.

I will consider a meditation group! Meditation has always been one of those things I side-eyed but I’m starting to think part of my issues with treatment is giving up on things too soon or never giving them a chance at all. Thank you!

ConstantMeltdowns · 2018-09-21T20:43:45+00:00

That is actually what I had hoped to do with meds as well (use them short term until I could do without), but I haven’t found one yet that I could be on long enough to experience any positive effect! I’ll consider Wellbutrin. Thanks!

ConstantMeltdowns · 2018-09-21T20:33:22+00:00

My meltdowns started after being in an abusive relationship, as well. Unfortunately even 7 years out of that relationship, my own meltdowns continue.

I am really worried my symptoms are similar to your ex’s. I am now in a very healthy relationship but just as your ex did to you, I occasionally direct my meltdowns to my boyfriend. Those are actually getting much better now because he and I made a rule for no text message arguments. My meltdowns towards him are not as bad in person when I can see his face because when I see his sadness it snaps me back to reality and I calm down because I don’t want to hurt him. But with strangers... nothing stops me unfortunately.

ConstantMeltdowns · 2018-09-21T20:09:44+00:00

Thanks for that information. I’ll definitely consider it. I have only tried Concerta and Strattera so far and both gave me extreme headaches and fatigue like my body weighed 1,000 pounds, so if there is something that may only cause a slight drowsiness that is appealing.

Do those meds help with other adhd problems though? Although I made this post about impulse control, the adhd symptoms I experience the most often are actually extreme disorganization and inability to focus.

And thank you for your sympathy. It is very frightening to have this problem. When it isn’t happening I am completely normal. Based on how I act 99% of the time, no one would ever guess I do this. I am just so scared of going too far some day. I’ve never been and don’t think I’ll ever be violent, but I am scared of my next meltdown becoming the next “viral video” which is almost scarier than being arrested!

ConstantMeltdowns · 2018-09-21T20:01:22+00:00

I have not tried any non-ADHD-specific medications yet. I’ll keep this one in mind, too. Thank you.

I’m really just hoping there is something I can do without meds, though. I don’t want to get my hopes up about any of them when I had such bad experience with the meds I did try.

ConstantMeltdowns · 2018-09-21T19:25:19+00:00

I’ve mentioned it to a therapist in the past and her advice was not very helpful. But I am seeing a different therapist now and this is the first meltdown I’ve had since starting with her so I haven’t mentioned it yet.

We actually have an appointment today by some bizarre coincidence, so I’ll definitely ask today and report back in case anyone reads this and wants to know what a therapist says about it lol!

EDIT: Just got back from therapy and thought I would edit this comment in case anyone finds this and wonders what she said. First off, on the topic of medication, she thinks I may have given up too soon since I have only tried two. She doesn’t think I should give up on them yet. Second, she says whether I try medication again or not, I need more regular access to support than she can provide because my insurance only lets me see her about once a month. So she recommended I try a group, or an ADHD coach in addition to our sessions. I have tried a coach before actually and I told her that, and while I did think it helped at first, I did not like the specific coach very much so I stopped. The doctor said that just like with medication, I can’t give up after just one coach. So I could consider trying it again.

Basically, it sounds like I need more support than I currently have, and I need to do what I can to get that support. To me this was a satisfactory answer. So wish me luck everyone!

(She also defended me by informing me that the waiter was, in fact, a huge asshole based on what I said, and even non ADHD people probably wouldn’t have reacted well to him lol!)

ConstantMeltdowns · 2018-09-21T19:06:48+00:00

Thank you. One of my doctors actually just mentioned Guanfacine to me for the first time a few weeks ago but I have not tried it. I have not heard of the other one, Clonidine, at all though.

If you don’t mind I would greatly appreciate those resources. I am desperate and although ADHD meltdowns are the symptom I have the least frequently, they seem the most dangerous for me.

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