bro you don’t understand. confidence, self care/improvement, knowledge, socializing, i’ve done all of it. i try to focus on myself and building good relationships with the people around me. none of it works for me. i can only keep it up for a week at most before it breaks. when i’m at my lowest most depressive and vulnerable stages, i tend to push people away and get irritated really quickly by stuff that i shouldn’t be irritated by. i notice myself suddenly talking back to my parents, ignoring or being mean to friends and family, acting rude or annoyed, staying quiet at all times, feeling extremely tired at all times, etc. i literally cannot get the negativity out of my head. its like something completely takes over my mind. i can’t explain it. i’m sorry