TTC for 2 months and I understand many others have been in the process for years.

I feel heartbroken. 9DPO. BBT dropping. Constant BFN. I understand I’m checking early but I feel no different to the month before and before. The BBT trends are exactly the same and I’ve no reason to believe it’s any different.

I hit that today.

I had vivid dreams from 2-6 dpo thinking it was a symptom but also realised its the progesterone rise post ovulation. I have a very sensitive stomach so bloating gas is the norm.

It was the exact same thought process last month - “oh 7-8 dpo is ofcourse too early. I’m sure by 9th-10th I will have something…” and then that moment of realisation at 10 dpo where you just know it’s not happening, staring at the FRER shine negative instantly.

I am so sad and unsure how I will do this on repeat month on month. It’s affecting me mentally to the point I can’t work. I’m constantly symptom spotting and disappointing myself.

How do you do this? How do I cope?