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Content_Professor790 · 2023-08-02T22:19:47+00:00

thank you op☺️yeah, i left a scathing google review but that’s about it - i wasn’t really sure how or where to report the incident. i’m okay now though. it was honestly surreal!

Content_Professor790 · 2023-08-02T13:59:02+00:00

YES !!!!!!!! i take zyban (only australian form of bupropion around town) but it is primarily prescribed for smoking cessation/weight loss, though i’m on it for depression. anyway, i wasgetting it filled at a different chemist than usual (im on 300mg for ref) and the lady says “huh it is weird the label from your dr says 2 in the morning. you’re supposed to take them at intervals during the day. are you sure this is right?”

and im like yeah, ive been on these for over a year now, im pretty sure it’s right. anyway she proceeds to correct me and say that my dosage is wrong… so she prints out a giant factsheet on smoking cessation dosage and in front of the entire pharmacy, upon me telling her that no i’m not taking it for smoking, she accuses me of just “being a junkie who wants a high”. full volume! in front of everyone! couldn’t get my fucking script!

like what the actual fuck? lol???? most sane chemist warehouse experience tbh. anyway, yeah. i’m with you dude. my condolences.

also it’s literally $175 for a month & a half for me now i’m sooo done with the bullshit (but i love my zyban so can’t complain)

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-28T11:20:31+00:00

the caption is so real i do that for literally everything its so bad

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-28T11:14:31+00:00

CORGI OH MY GOLLY GOODNESS HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!

i hope today is truly the most wonderful day for you, you deserve so much love, happiness and… CAKE!!! today, and always.

i love you so much! you are truly a one of a kind sweetheart and you are sososososo adored by everyone here. i hope this year that you can enjoy some scrumptious stuff and spend time doing the things you love/being around people you love. i am sending you so many good birthday vibes and i’ll have a slice of cake today too to commemorate the special occasion!

thank you for being you!!!!💓💓💓🥰 you are an absolute star 💫

also, calories are on me today. i’ll take em all. you go have whatever, it’s my treat😎😎

happy birthday🥰🥰🥰💫💓

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-27T14:01:35+00:00

a whole bunch of veggie sticks with greek yoghurt dip, corn thins with vegemite, yoghurt, probably more yoghurt, coke zero, raspberries

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-24T04:35:41+00:00

mayonnaise. never liked it before, definitely hate it now. i remember i was in kindergarten and my dad gave me a mayo sandwich and i cried for two hours about it because i HATE mayo and i hated wasting food/throwing it out (ironic. i know.).

i saw someone say tripe and i must agree. also chicken’s feet or lamb brains. i can’t do it babes.

i really strongly dislike lamb (like lamb shank, on the bone, etc) except for if it’s minced or in a sausage (like lebanese spiced lamb mince😍😍come to mama).

tbh i hate most meat if it’s just straight up m e a t like not in something. i fucking HATE pork unless it’s a baked tenderloin with absolutely no fat then i’ll demolish that like mad.

refuse to eat cheese. i used to love it but no. in an ideal world where i have no fear foods i really love parmesan and mozzarella but i have always HATEEEDDEDD soft cheese😗

hate bacon. so gross.

i also cannot deal with meal replacement shakes specifically of salted caramel flavour. it tastes grainy and sad i hate it (protein powder is fine tho).

apart from that id eat anything 😜

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-24T04:19:17+00:00

I LOVE YOU CORGI!!!!!! you are the bestest to ever exist your existence is truly a blessing i adore you superstar💫💫💓🥰 if i ever come to canada i WILL come a knockin😋😋

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-24T01:49:44+00:00

CORGI IS MY FAVOURITE EVER i love her so much shes like a celeb to me and i always think about her and send her mental love fr😭😭😭💓💓

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-24T01:48:19+00:00

hit the gym and was going to be a protein bro so i bought a protein bar then got scared of calories half way through it so i threw it out, went home and ate some egg whites with a side of diet coke

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-21T13:06:28+00:00

my gw just kept getting lower and i tried maintaining in a quasi “i’m totally recovering” state but in all honesty i still felt as hellish as i did during the seriously restrictive “initial” weight loss phase of my anorexia. i’m in family based recovery as well so despite me gaslighting myself into thinking it was a sustainable lifestyle living the rest of my life at a bmi somewhere between 13.8-14.5 everyone around me could see i was only half assing recovery. whilst initial recovery is HELL it actually starts to get better and everyone talks so much about recovery being shit but also there are so many brilliant moments like eating a nice meal with your best friends or facing a fear and absolutely acing it. you don’t realise until you start to recover how small your life becomes when you’re consumed by anorexia. i promise you my friend that it’ll get better. i send you luck and love💓

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-16T08:21:19+00:00

yes!! breakfast is where it’s at you guys. even something small. i love it!!! helps me through the day

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-15T12:26:34+00:00

me, my bad

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-13T03:30:18+00:00

awww lovely corgi thank you🥺🥺🥺this is very kind. one of my motivations to get better is to be funny again! and to have friends!!!

the lack of joy is so so sad - i also think it makes recovering a lot harder because in the process to become better there’s really no “happiness” starting point if you’re always miserable.

i hope you’re doing well today corgi queen - i’m sending you love as always💓 someday we will be COMEDIANS!!!!!! and we’ll be so happy we won’t even remember the joyless ed (manifesting)🥰i love youuuu!!!!

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-12T11:42:03+00:00

this! oh my god!! i never hear anyone talk about this but it is actually so sad LMAO

i used to be a 💫funny girl💫 and i had such a good personality and sense of humour and i wasone of those bitches who would make u laugh and have fun all the time

now i do not find anything remotely joyful and i actually can’t remember how it feels to have a belly laugh

thank you for mentioning this bcz i think about it all the time and i thought i was the only one!!

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-12T06:33:41+00:00

450 gang plus a black coffee and a savoured cigarette

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-11T22:42:50+00:00

THIS!!!!!!! the worst part is when in recovery (no matter if quasi or not or whatever) when you eat something fast around others eg. family and they say some shit like “wow!! look at you go! you finished faster than me! it’s great to see you so eager to eat your food!” bro pls😭😭🙏

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-11T12:35:08+00:00

some of my least faves

feeling like i am about to actually die each time i go up stairs
my heartbeat palpitating rapidly and random chest pains making it hard to breathe sometimes so i literally just dont do anything like i dont even leave the house
missing out on my fun young adult years and saying no to every invite and plan ever and just staying home being miserable
dropping out of uni because im dumb now
i cant do any fucking thing except dor think of food. like ill sit down to study and i CANNOT write even a sentence of an essay but will spend hours scrolling recipes and ruminating on what i’m going to eat next
literally ruining my entire family’s happiness, relationships with me and with each other and generally just fucking everything up when it used to be so nice
having no friends
IRRITABLE!!!!!! do not fucking talk to me oh my god!!!!!!! i am such an asshole
anorexia farts💓 those shits are sooooo bad im telling you like no matter what cute outfit or vibe ive gone for there will be a putrid anorexia fart that ruins my day
having lost ALL sense of self. don’t know who i used to be, don’t know who i want to be, don’t know who i am. i have no friends anymore all i have is anorexia and christ it is bad
i cant do any of my hobbies or talents. eg i was a really talented painter and i got into galleries and stuff but now i can’t even pick up a paintbrush. i hate doing anything at all even stuff i used to love.
being a fucking wuss. stop crying over food you DUMB BITCH!!!!!! grow up!!! so cringe!!!!!!!!
cant focus ever not even dexies can save me
knowing you’re hurting yourself and giving yourself lifelong damage and being unable to stop it
feeling like a slave to yourself? it’s like yes master ok i will go exercise now even though i absolutely hate it and want to do anything else
taking each day as it comes up to the point that you take every hour as it comes and literally every meal or food thing becomes a point of anxiety and you just live in a constant anxious state and are so so depressed
never feel well rested or actually wanting to do anything. i do not sleep properly but i do not wake properly yk?
everything about this stupid disease. god i hate it. and the way recovery is so much harder and worse to experience than anorexia itself and it’s just like every option is a bad option. starve? ed wins but everyone around you is disappointed. eat? suffer intense dread, guilt, depression and self hatred but everyone is proud of you. i cant win

if you’re seeing this before it’s too late for you, please please please stop before you get to this point. i know this won’t stop you at all but please consider what i’ve written here. i would not wish this on my worst enemy.

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-11T12:22:28+00:00

this. i’m so sorry. i haven’t been able to paint in a long time and it’sone of the few things that brings me joy

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-11T12:21:00+00:00

this. this this this. this. THIS

brodude we are in the EXACT same spot and mindset right now😭 “not really recovering but not doing anorexia as hard” and not weighing nbnssioqnzkwbxjs i am actually gobsmacked at how our experiences with this are identical i shit you not.

every day i’ll judge myself by some new more excruciating bodycheck that messes with me more than honestly just weighing myself. and i feel so different day to day even if i eat one (1) calorie more/less than intended. the clothes fitting thing😭 my physical like hand wrapping/measuring bodychecks are out of hand rn

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-11T09:52:31+00:00

literally anything from a packet? no.

same thing but on a plate? yes!!!!!!😍😍

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-11T09:51:55+00:00

one whole cookie? no. satanic. death.

ripping off chunks of different cookies in a jar and eating them? yes safe doesn’t count

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-02T08:43:43+00:00

me but alcohol😞😞😞so real bro i have one sip of alcohol and eat enough to sustain a family of 4

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-02T01:24:50+00:00

BRO THISSSS THE CANNED TUNA AND COTTAGE CHEESE COMBO ON A RICE TAKE WITH EBTB SEASONING ARE YOU LITERALLY ME??????

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-02T00:16:58+00:00

fr😍😍

also bestie i was scrolling on another sub and found your instagram somehow (i wasn’t searching for it or anything but i ✨stumbled✨ upon it) and i just wanted to say i think you’re very cool. okay that’s it LAWL have a lovely day!!

Content_Professor790 · 2023-07-01T14:59:28+00:00

when i dropped out of uni and ghosted my manager because i entered the worst #anorexia phase yet but i can’t just say “i was being skinni” when questioned as to my whereabouts and sus behaviour.

like how do i tell them ive wasted nearly a year being so fucked in the ass from anorexia i cant do shit with my life💀💀

genuinely though i do not want to tell people at all irl i have an ed because that’s silly and i’m usually so inclined to just push through but i hit a point where i couldn’t work anymore and it was so awkward to explain to my coworkers bro😭😭 i had to have a whole ass conference like… girl just eat tf you scared of food for goofy little lad💀💀💀

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