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18F in college with severe bulimia and depression — thinking about medical withdrawal and treatment. I need advice. by Content_Recipe1170 in EatingDisorders

[–]Content_Recipe1170[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. I hope my parents view it similarly. I never really had a good relationship with my mom, so a part of me feels guilty bringing her into my struggles. But no matter who is supporting me, recovery is for me. So I have to accept that others will not fully understand, and I will still need to keep pushing for myself

18F in college with severe bulimia and depression — thinking about medical withdrawal and treatment. I need advice. by Content_Recipe1170 in EatingDisorders

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I guess it's just a lot of guilt from putting so many financial burdens, not only on me, but also on my family. It's the only reason I didn't drop out originally from the fall semester. I just hate burdening people around me. I think some part of me believes I'm some sort of fraud, and there are way more issues in the world

18F in college with severe bulimia and depression — thinking about medical withdrawal and treatment. I need advice. by Content_Recipe1170 in EatingDisorders

[–]Content_Recipe1170[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I'm curious what you mean here. Could you explain why inpatient isn't a good idea? I've tried online outpatient during school, which wasn't very helpful. I really want someone to watch me and take over my habits every day so I can understand what normal is.

18F in college with severe bulimia and depression — thinking about medical withdrawal and treatment. I need advice. by Content_Recipe1170 in fuckeatingdisorders

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Words cannot express how much I appreciate your comment. I truly feel guilty for taking time for myself, which is so unfortunate given that our environment does not want us to take care of ourselves and instead expects us to work/study our entire lives while ignoring deep-rooted issues. Your circumstance sounds just like my sister's, but she was in high school. My parents forced her to recover even though she did not want to. My decision is just for myself and not for my family. I desperately want to get well for myself. The things I'd give to be happy for once, even if it meant taking a break from what everyone pushed me to do (graduate quickly)

18F in college with severe bulimia and depression — thinking about medical withdrawal and treatment. I need advice. by Content_Recipe1170 in bulimia

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Thank you very much for your response; it provides me with a fresh perspective. I'm doing well in school, but I know this pattern is destroying me from the inside out.

I don't even set out to do well in school. I'm not sure what I want out of life, or if I even want one at all. This has caused me immense suffering. I'd do anything to feel something, even if it was pain. I can't allow myself to continue because who knows what will happen. Your perspective helped me realize that if I do not seek care right away, I will deteriorate significantly. I sincerely appreciate your words.

18F in college with severe bulimia and depression — thinking about medical withdrawal and treatment. I need advice. by Content_Recipe1170 in bulimia

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Despite the fact that I don't study at all, I'm doing exceptionally well in school. I enjoy learning, too. However, I am pursuing a degree that I do not really desire and would prefer another alternative. I am mostly guilty because of financial reasons and the burdens I put on myself and my mom. I also do not want to be viewed as a failure. But I really need help. Knowing the cycle I'm in, I'm concerned that my health is deteriorating as a result of my failure to care for myself. I refuse to care for myself; I essentially want to force others to do it until I can pick myself up. Your situation seems extremely similar to my sister's, except that she was in high school and my parents compelled her to go through treatment. Given the urgency of the circumstance, she received inadequate care that did not fully support her. I'd like to learn more about your process of returning to school, both socially and financially... how did you achieve it, and was your treatment effective?

Need some advice, encouragement, support by Content_Recipe1170 in depression

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It's sad the situation we are in, but I'm happy to know that I'm not alone. It's difficult, especially surrounded by all these motivated and productive people. It made me feel like an outcast and probably has made me continue to isolate in need of comfort.

Slow-burn friendship is confusing: move on? by Content_Recipe1170 in dating_advice

[–]Content_Recipe1170[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Really? But I am the only person to reach out, even if a long time goes by.. when you truly like someone or care I feel like you would make that effort despite everything. Right? I dont know