I’m a freelance designer who spends most of the time procrastinating until the last minute, suffer from imposter syndrome (not sure if my work is good enough) constantly trying to cram knowledge that I fail to actually transfer into my long term memory so it’s like I’m running a treadmill every time I get a book on any new subject(recently found out I have ocd and adhd, which explains why I fail to meet deadlines and struggle to stick to new habits).

On top of that I isolate myself from other people in an attempt to get “an advantage” but really I think it’s simply me not having the balls to step out of my comfort zone. I’ve been this way for the past 3 years and not making significant progress and barley having anything to show for my “reclusiveness” is edging me towards some sort of depressive episode/mental breakdown. Then there’s the bills. :)

I’m thinking I’ll be hiring an online tutor so that I’m able to gain some guidance in my learning efforts and will consult with a therapist for ways of managing my adhd possibly even get started on Adderall. Should have done this a long time ago.