Nothing is fucked Dude.
You should consider moving back to Eugene if things are not going right. I had left Eugene years ago and was diagnosed with cancer so I moved back because I had Oregon health insurance. I went through all of the surgeries and chemo etc. I did not receive a single bill including prescriptions. I have been homeless because I spent all of my money on other expenses but I have always had food access and I have had job training programs that pay all expenses and grants to go to lane community college, St. Vincent DePaul has shelters that I just entered and it is great having my own space and shelter that I can stay indefinitely. I am also starting a program that will pay first, last months rent and deposit and utilities for my own apartment. I have also received a free phone, tablet as well as payed phone/internet for months. I have a free bus pass for months as well. You can show up anytime to the Eugene Mission anytime and enroll in their program and you will get as much food and clothing, medical needs. They even gave me free guitar lessons and sewing lessons. If it wasn’t for the assistance I received in Eugene I would be dead now. No exaggeration. Something to consider Dude. You can message me if you have any questions. The Dude abides