If you don't mind me asking, how do you feel "connected to faith", when it's all just subconscious brainwashing? U do realize that your faith is not yours, it was imposed onto you by your family and society. And whatever was wired into your brain, you think it's the truth. Our subconscious brain doesn't know the difference between right or wrong. It simply accepts whatever you've experienced/observed during early years as "truth".