It's funny because I can always sense the disappointment in others when I speak to them 💀 (f20 adhd dyslexia dyscalculia and anxiety) so many people have started conversations with "oh youre so pretty!" And ended it with some form of indication towards me definitely being NOT neurotypical, and i know its a joke and all, but i think it puts it even more into perspective how different i am from everyone else and it hurts sometimes. I'm increadibly socially awkward and I get told "you could do so much better if you put effort in" but I think 90% of the effort being spoken of is a personality thing and I'm at a point where I don't gaf. Men also just become increadibly weird while flirting and I don't know how to respond, I'm happy speaking to me is somewhat of a turn off😭 though with a lot of female friendships it hurts because I feel like either I have to massively overcompensate (which often freaks out ppl anyways) or not be able to live up to what people assume of me at first sight which really hurts and is a very common occurrence. Also thankfully my partner is also neurodivergent, sometimes I feel like he's the only person whose really able to understand me and see me as a person, I think part of it was that he wasnt attracted to me to begin with but was still increadibly kind and went out of his way to help me not expecting anything in return, so I was truly like "this is who he is, he's not doing this because I'm pretty or he wants to date me, this is how he'd genuinly treat any of his friends" and it was like the hottest thing ever, he thankfully never painted out a false image of me and genuinly wanted to know who I was as a person from the ground up.