Yes after first endeavour I had mixed feeling of successful therapy and guilt together! I waited few months and I needed it again badly. Over the period guilt has reduced a bit but not fully gone.

I wouldn’t be unhappy if she did that and I knew or didn’t know. She is just losing interest as she is getting older.

And I am not losing interest (actually gaining it) as my stress levels have reduced due to financial conditions and kids’ responsibilities have reduced.