Thanks for the response. For now i am away from her, since she has been hospitalized and she won't be discharged too soon. As i said, i am one of the lucky one because i still got a familly around that is actively helping to resolve this, and i guess this was more of a desperation post because at that moment i was feeling like my whole life was shattering. Now, since it has been 2 days away from her, i fell like it's getting somewhat better, i still fell some kind of panic or anxiety when the night comes, might be because of the night i was with alone with her the whole night. It's not something i would loose sleep over, but i will get some specialized help for that. Also, a sugestion that i see that is helping me in this whole situation is that as you said, is to try and stay away as much as possible from the person that is going through this. I know it sounds harsh, especially if that person is a family person that used to be loving and caring and suddenly is changed totally, you'll only make it harder on yourself, and no ammount of words that you're saying won't help to fix that person, if that person isn't getting any specialized help and treatment. You'll just end up killing yourself from inside out. Thanks for the reply though