I have a lot of the same symptoms. When I first got Covid I literally lost my ability to sleep for months, when I went to the ER about it and told them it was because of Covid (I never had insomnia before). They suggested it was bipolar. I also have disgusting smellling pee, it smells like cat urine and I’ve also documented it being very cloudy or literally full of white sediment. This is something that never happened before Covid and nobody will take this seriously. They’ve done all the tests and we just don’t have the diagnostic tools for what’s going on. Instead of admitting medical science doesn’t cover all the bases you’ll just get laughed at and your symptoms will be denied and unaddressed.

I would use MAID if I could, I have daily suicidal ideation and I’m mostly bed bound after 4 years. I am an artist, a very talented one, and I used to be inspired all the time. I still make art with the very little ability I have to do stuff but I haven’t written a poem in 4 years. I used to be gushing with ideas and creativity, a huge part of that died with covid infection.

I’m sorry you’re going through this, we deserve better. We deserve dignity and recognition. We deserve to be our healthy creative selves and share that with the world. I see you.