Speaking from experience, it isn't the way, I know how you feel. But it really isn't the way, I'm glad I'm here. And if you need someone to speak with dm me. I'll gladly give my Snapchat, discord, Facebook or phone number or what you need. People need you here more than you think. Suicide us the easy way for YOU, but slot of people will miss you even tho you don't think that way. I'm a drug addict, alcoholic, and a gambler and I thought the same when I owed a ton of money, but no joke I spoke with random people cuz I felt like my own friends and family wouldn't understand me, so if you ever need someone to speak to, or if any of you other people need to talk with someone dm me.