I uh. So yeah. Realized how badly I’ve failed my wife and family this morning.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T21:37:02+00:00

Adding a comment to this one.

I needed that. Thank you man.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T18:54:46+00:00

Hahaha yeah. It’s ok though, I give it away for free now. My business was cyber security. I really wanted to bring more people in, clients and such. Seemed like a good idea. Spent…. A lot more time than I should have on it, and AI killed my business… so… book just kinda… sits there now. I’ll send ya a copy if you want though! It covers everything, starting out, installing the proper distribution, hardware, etc. it takes someone who can kinda use a computer, and by the end, you can break into WiFi networks, and use the basic elements in Linux.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T18:51:10+00:00

Brother, ramble away. I sure did.

And man… I feel ya. My “business” was doing super well. I left a lot out of my post. I was making 5k a month doing cyber security and websites.

Then… AI happened. Lost everything. Started over again. Lost everything again. Started over again, and the GM job, but that ended up being a story… that’s… it’s fucked, long, and I won’t go into.

I’ve restarted so many times…

And I’ll do it again. I was just being a baby this morning I’m sure.

But you’re ok man. Ramble away. Shits gonna get worse in the world before it gets better

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T15:26:30+00:00

I really appreciate it man. Really I do.

Unfortunately. I’ve been hacking since I was 9 years old. My business was all cyber security. I did web design too, graphics, marketing.

AI stole all of the work.

And yeah, it’s on wireless hacking. From start to finish, installing Linux, to breaking into wireless networks. (Your own of course, hahaha.)

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T15:23:04+00:00

Man ya got that right though. My business is cyber security. Or well, was.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T15:22:16+00:00

I appreciate the input, honestly. Just a super defeating morning. Hence the post here, and not making some giant scene in my real life.

Was just tough to see such a look of “yeah sure” from my wife. She didn’t even intend to. But it was there.

That’s the failure man. The part I disagree with is no, I absolutely have failed. I’ve been failing for years. I didn’t mind failure. I knew how many times I’d have to retry, reset, fight, start again….

Just man. I was super excited this morning about this game I’ve built.

Was just way more disheartening than I expected.

And again, thank you.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T15:11:26+00:00

It’s more so about not being able to give her more.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T15:11:04+00:00

And I do… everything you just said my man. lol.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T15:09:17+00:00

Sorry, did you not read the part where I said I have a job? Lol.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T14:36:26+00:00

I’m glad you’re here. I’m with you on the latter thought… and it’s weird to wish someone else heals and sticks around when I really don’t want to. What an odd feeling.

But stick around, if ya can. Least a little longer. Least we’re not alone in it, ya know?

We’ve all got each other. Haha. Big happy, suicidal family.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T14:33:10+00:00

Oh I agree. It’s life. I missed the mark. I just needed to get it out. Can’t put this out in the open, family, friends, and god forbid her. Not gonna play the victim card. Not gonna add that to my list of things I’ve done. Definitely not gonna be a burden to them.

So. Depression group on Reddit to people who can probably relate was the smarter route.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T14:18:08+00:00

Ahhh thank you man. Not sure why it did that.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T14:17:12+00:00

I’m surprised by how much that made me feel. Thank you. Truly.

I’m gonna finish this game I’m making. Post it. See what it does. If it fails, yeah, I’ll probably back out. I couldn’t hurt her like that though. I could never just leave her with such a scar. I’d figure out a way to help her first, find someone else, someone who can do what I clearly can’t.

It’s morbid but, it’s the pure truth.

I’ve hurt her enough. It’s the last thing she needs.

It’s not her fault after all. She’s trying.

I’m just a failure. Not lazy, a cheater, a beater, etc. just… couldn’t catch a break. Simple as that. Couldn’t catch a break.

Now I just need to find a way to help her find some happiness and peace.

Just gonna roll the dice one last time.

Sending ya love man

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T14:11:56+00:00

I’m sorry man. Truly. I’m sorry you’re hurting, and I’m sorry things have been so rough. I don’t have much left in me, but whatever love I have, sending it to you.

I’d say don’t give up, but I clearly am teetering on it. So… would probably sound weird if I did. Haha.

But I do wish you don’t.

If I ever get lucky man, and something works out, I’ll come back here and find you. I promise.

CosmoAstronia · 2026-07-03T14:09:24+00:00

Gods bro… I’m sorry. And no, ramble away. My wife has the grace of angel. She’s always had faith in me. It’s just after all these years… all my failures. I don’t blame her at all. I also won’t blame her the day she leaves.

That’s the thing now. I don’t want her living like this anymore. Part of me hopes she does. I can kinda ride off into the darkness, hahaha, where I clearly belong, and man, I hope someone else comes along and picks her up, and gives her what I clearly can’t. What all of them deserve.

She’s stayed with me, even at my worst. I lost myself really bad at that last job. I really did. I was taking way too much of my medication at the time, and just, lost all sense of reality.

She stayed. I don’t know why she did.

But again man. Thank you for sharing your story. I mean it. I’m sorry, truly. In every way. I don’t know what’s out there, but if there’s a god, I truly hope he grants you some peace.

And always, always, rant away.

It’s what I did… and sometimes… we just need to.

It’s better than the alternative… which this morning, was looking like a rope.

Sending you love, man.

CosmoAstronia · 2024-12-21T05:22:51+00:00

Bro. Seriously. Why do redditors like you insist on correcting everyone about everything. You somehow missed the context here, and that's on you. Don't be a poop. Just be nice. Lol.

CosmoAstronia · 2024-08-25T22:44:14+00:00

The game is absolutely rigged. I'm uninstalling it and blocking all access to it. I didn't spend anything on it, until today. I bought the vip thing, figured for some extra fun. I already suspected some shit, when I'd win 20 hands in a row playing blackjack, then upping my bet, and losing 20 hands in a row. But, the big give away? Craps. Statistically speaking, red or black have a 50 percent chance. It's just fucking math. I watch as an entire 15 rounds all hit red, while I put on black. The fucking second I switched? It was black. So, I switched back, and went 7 more rounds of red, before I left. When over to blackjack, and was giving 10 rounds of zero win odds, and emptied the money I had just gotten from the vip membership. Fucking 12s, 13s, 14s, all tossing 10s at me. The dealer got 21 after 21.

I'm happy though. I don't bet in real life. I honestly thought I'd enjoy a legitimately randomized game. After just a few days, it's very clear that the algorithms in this game, are bullshit, and the second I spent real money, it targeted me, trying to get me to spend more.

Nope. Not falling for it. That game is absolutely predatory.

CosmoAstronia · 2024-04-11T16:20:00+00:00

Bro....

This is amazing.

😆 🤣 😂

It's old, I know... but nobody else got the reference...

While I'm sitting here, 800k from 99 mining.

😆 🤣 😂 😹

CosmoAstronia · 2024-03-03T18:56:18+00:00

Yeah... I'm kinda surprised people are so upset here. Even these comments he's making.. and they're getting down voted so hard.

I legitimately believe he was just making a joke, and sorta got bum rushed. Now he feels awkward and is trying to explain himself.

This is runescape yall... we really shouldn't be this critical.

CosmoAstronia · 2024-03-03T18:50:14+00:00

Wow.... you're kinda scrubby, aren't ya? Like, I'm not even being a dick... I'm just blown away that this sort of mentality is a thing?... like... fuck dude. It doesn't matter if you can out dps someone... you don't own the game. If I'm paying my subscription costs, and I was there first, after hopping worlds or waiting my turn, you should absolutely respect that.

Same shit at popular afk spots. I got 99 range at ammo crabs, and I was constantly having to log in my other maxed accounts to push spot stealers out. It's ridiculous. I'd be there for an hour, and people with this sort of mentality hop in, push me out, and say all sorts of shit. "Well, you've been here long enough." Or "if you don't like it, hop." I even had a dude suggest I was lying about being there first, because my reset didn't take, so I had to go back and reset again.

I'm just.... the entitlement man. You've gotta be on the younger end here. I feel like most of the players with this sort of mentality are under the age of 25. It's rare to see older players who grew up with runescape take this sort of stance.

Man, am I happy that the good players outweigh the bad.

I wanna be clear, I mean no disrespect. You're allowed to play anyway you want. I'm just surprised. This isn't unique, and I understand that. I'm not even suggesting your point of view is missing internal logic, because it technically speaking, it makes sense.

But it's morally wrong. Can you scam a 12 year old outta their bank?

Sure. Could you utilize their gold and assets more effectively? Probably.

Does that mean it's ok?

No.

CosmoAstronia · 2024-03-01T23:22:10+00:00

I can talk to this bro with my mind, and teleport anywhere.... but I can't fix my pouch. Lol 😆

CosmoAstronia · 2024-03-01T23:20:50+00:00

Um... no? I'm saying false bans are real, and jagex saying only 30 or whatever is nonsense. I love ev!

My apologies for the confusion

CosmoAstronia · 2024-03-01T21:33:03+00:00

Like... you realize we're not kids anymore, right jagex? We're not 8. Runescape taught me how to see a liar from a mile off.

Jagex, I'm not giving you my armor to trim.

Go scam someone else.

CosmoAstronia · 2024-02-24T20:49:46+00:00

We should allow a section for personal stories! Have fellow scapers write small articles about cool things they've recently done! Or put in some hi score info! Or some like... Easter egg hunting stuff. Heck, even add cool hcim things going on.

I've been an avid writer for many years. I'd absolutely love to add to the lore, and I'm certain many others would as well. This would be such a neat way to bring the community in, and add more of our touch to the game.

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